Sunday, August 29, 2010

I know one day I will have to bear all consequences of my actions.

I always thought that as long as I can make my kids grow up to be someone successful, even by being fierce and strict to them to the extent that they hate me, I am fine with it all... As long as they hv the ability to defend for themselves & survive in a world full of intense competitions, my job is considered done.

But today, I realise love is a funny thing. It has the ability to make ppl do things that will hurt the person they love without realizing...

I want to be a good mother, a good wife, a good daughter/daughter-in-law. I love my sons, my husband, my in laws... But to do a good job in all the roles suffocates me.

It's time I realise I'm not a superwoman..

I should change the way I handle the kids, my marriage & my in laws... Afterall, nothing in this world is more important then kinship...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:39 PM

Monday, August 23, 2010

Good times coming to an end like everything else....

I'm starting my new job this Wednesday.

Feeling kinda excited..

Hopefully I can stay in this job..

I mean....

Well, let's just say I have tough luck...

Am sourcing for a tutor for Travis.

But still considering my option..

Either private or group tuition..

But I think private tuition works better for him as he's sort of like a 'chameleon'.

Hopefully there will be improvement in his studies after that..

Labels: Kids

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:43 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Another boring night...

Went swimming with Travis & Rhys today and Joe since he is not working today.

It was fun! !

Saw a group of little children from ChaoYang School in the pool.

Though they look a little different from us, but it's actually the same.

I was sitting by the baby pool when they walked pass and one of them even smile at me... Just like any other nice little kid would do.

Reached home around 6pm and have been slacking since.

Sianx~ Joe has slept already...

And I dun feel at all tired... Haiz~

It's gonna be a long lonely night =(

Might go drinking with friends later..

But not confirm yet...

I dunno will I still be awake by the time he call..

Lol!

I feel better after I put the big 'stone' in me down...

And I realised I'm not as moody as before.

Watched a movie with Joe the other day with an App on my iPhone.

Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang

Nice storyline, nice actors/actresses.
I will not go into any details, you shall watch for yourself should you want to know how good this show is. =)

Guess I gotta go have a cuppa milk.
A cuppa milk before bed make me sleep better..

Still thinking.... Should I go for the drinking session later???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:18 PM

Love is so impractical. I spent my best years with the man I love but in the end all I've got is shit from him. I don't understand how man works.. And I don't like it. Especially not knowing hw the one sleeping beside me thinks. I'm tired. I dun wanna try anymore.. I'll just let nature take its course.. Whatever will be.. Will be...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:03 AM

Monday, August 16, 2010

This is the day that....

- Rhys's first appointment with the speech therapist.

- Signing appoitment letter with my new employer

- Ms A's first appointment with her lawyer.. Sadly, it's a divorce case :(

- ROM on this date 7 years ago

- Xiao Ting's bday

- Violet's first day of work

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:49 AM

Sunday, August 15, 2010

说我多愁善感是没错的。

我刚接到一通电话。
来电者是我多年死党。
她问我明天有没有空陪她去一个地方。
说着说着，她就哭起来了。。。
在哭声中，她告诉我她受不了她老公了，她明天要去律师那儿申请离婚。

我们认识了15年，从小玩到大。
有心事总会向对方倾诉。

认识了这么久，我知道她是个很好的妈妈，很好的太太。
我觉得一个像她那么好的女人应该有个美满的婚姻，幸福的家庭。
现在她却说她要离婚。。。
原因是因为她老公。。。

突然间我觉得世界很黑暗。
这世界根本就没有所谓永恒的爱情，没有幸福，没有美满的结局。。。
这些根本是骗人的东西。

最近的心情很不好。
因为甲先生对我不理不睬。。。
我们之前是很好的朋友。
但可能因为他的工作我们渐渐疏远了。

我朋友不多，所以当我有了个要好的朋友时，我会很珍惜他。
我试着拉回这份友情，但是。。。。。
我不开心了很久。。。
心理的苦闷无处倾诉。
我好讨厌这种感觉，我不想继续这样消沉下去。
我决定不再为了那一段拉不回的友情不开心下去。
我决定放下那段回忆。。。
祝我愉快吧！=）

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Exam's over.
I can finally burn all the lecture notes!!
Lol!

2 weeks break before the next module start.
Just the correct timing..
I can concentrate on my new job..
Gotta bring Rhys for his appointment tomorrow @ KKH.
After that will acc my frenx to the law firm & lastly to my new employers office to sign appointment letter.

Yati will be going over to my aunt's place end of this month.
I will be without a helper then..
Hopefully I am able to cope with the life then..

Eough said..
Let us enjoy a hokkien song that I like so much..

父子情深

Labels: Life, uncertainties

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:11 PM

Friday, August 13, 2010

才说要忘了你，又开始想念你。。。。

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:54 PM

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Guess I did fairly well on my POE paper.
FA1 paper this Friday, hopefully I am able to do equally well, if not better... =)

Talking about faring in exam, I have not even started on my revision yet=P
Will be meeting Violet after interview tomorrow for a whole-day revision.
Hopefully there will still be enough time to cover all relevant topics.

I feel so fat!
Seems like the few kgs that I've lost previously has found its way back to me again..
Guess I should really watch my diet now..
With all illness running in my house, I'm so scared my body might be a 'headquarter' for them one day.

Sis has hypertension.
And as I know, this is heredity.
And I am certain I will also have such problem in the near future if my figures mark as my weight doesn't go down...
So, for the sake of my health, some changes are inevitable. =)

There's a job interview tomorrow at Raffles Place.
Don't know if I should go...
I'm in this state not because i'm frequent minded.
But due to some possible changes in the house which might need me to stay at home for a few months.

Whatever it is, I think I should just go for the interview.
An appointment has been made..
It's not nice if I fail to turn up.

Hubby is back to night shift this month..
So I'll be all alone at night...
Hate it when they put him on night shift!
Especially at a time like this!!!!!

Labels: Studies

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:12 PM

Monday, August 02, 2010

POE exam tomorrow...
I have been spending time doing revisions.. memorising formulas & definations...
Doing whatever I could to be prepared for this exam but it all seems futile!
I can't get much into my head...
I can't sleep well at night and it's making me feeling sleepy in the afternoon.
End result?? I can't concentrate during revisions....

Gotta wake up early for final revision tomorrow...
Gotta sleep soon~

Labels: Life, Studies

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:04 PM

Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang

Nice storyline, nice actors/actresses. I will not go into any details, you shall watch for yourself should you want to know how good this show is. =) Guess I gotta go have a cuppa milk. A cuppa milk before bed make me sleep better.. Still thinking.... Should I go for the drinking session later???

Nice storyline, nice actors/actresses.
I will not go into any details, you shall watch for yourself should you want to know how good this show is. =)

Guess I gotta go have a cuppa milk.
A cuppa milk before bed make me sleep better..

Still thinking.... Should I go for the drinking session later???