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Oh my god!!! I just remember what I dreamt last night!!!!!

Make a guess...

No???

Alright then... Let me tell ya...

I dreamt of grandpi last night!!!!!! We were in a very crowded place. Something like a hawker center or stuffs like that. There's a lot of people around us. I was there with another person but I can't remember who. I guess it's my sister. Cos I can feel that that person is someone very close to me. We seems to be looking for someone or something when my grandfather appear in front of us. He was wearing a gray button shirt, taking something on his hand. And in my dream, he was walking!!! Not like how he was before he passed away, being confined to a wheel chair. We were so happy when we saw him, and quickly look for a place for him to sit. We started chatting like how we used to be when he was still around. Not realizing that he had actually already left us. Suddenly, the one beside me start shaking me and reminded me that grandpi had already passed away. But I wasn't scared at all, I was like 'oh, ya hor...' And I turn back to grandpi and tell him how sad I was that he's gone and I can never see him again. But he smile and said that he can buy a hi-card and give me his no, so that no matter where he is, we can still keep in contact!!!

I was over the moon when I hear grandpi saying this. This means that I can stay in contact with him no matter where he is!!!! Isn't that great???

I was so happy that I insist that we should go get a hi-card immediately. We then get up from where we were and proceed to get the card. But I have no recollection that we actually went into a shop or something like that. And wasn't very sure if he did give me his no. But I know when I left, I was feeling very happy. And I promised that I'll look for him again.

Then my stupid alarm goes off!!!!!!

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Finally... After so long... my chance(of dreaming grandpi) came...

Grandpi... He's the same even in my dream. He still console me whenever I'm down. (Like how I mention earlier when I told him how sad I was that h's gone and I couldntt get in touch with him and he gave me a solution to the problem...) He was like this when he's alive. When I have any problems, or any uncertainties, he'll help me solve it and give me reassurance. I know the sky is always bright with granpi around. And even if the sky falls down, I need not be afraid cos grandpi is always there!!! Even when he's weak and frail, I know I could still count on him to give me the strength to carry on.

But now that he's gone, I feel lost at times.

I blame myself for not giving him enough attention when he's alive. For not kissing him enough, for not telling him enough of 'I love you', for not being there when he needed someone to be there for him.

(*Selfish bit^h!!!*)

I could only live in remorse now.

My advice to all: Love everone around you like there's no tomorrow. You'll never know when they'll be gone. And when they're gone, you know that you've put in your best for them. And you won't have any regrets like me.

Still...

It was a nice dream afterall... How I wish that it wasn't a dream. That I can really keep in contact with him now.