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Thursday, July 31, 2008

Really tired today.
Left office at ard 7.15pm..
All thanks to Mr Garry Ho~
He had to rush some submission docs
and need me to help him print those out..
So I started printing at ard 4.30pm..
And only finish till 7.15pm..

Went to Hans with my Co's Architect for lunch today
Hudah, Brenda, Lih Ching, KS & Xenia went tgt.
It's the first time I had lunch with so many ppl
Normally it would only be me, Xenia & Lih Ching
The food there not bad...
Will go there again if I have the chance next time..

12am tonight will be the time the Gate of Hell
open up for all souls to come to our world for a 'holiday'
Chinese belief is that it's best not to stay out
late duing this period of time..
For me, I'm not that superstitious..
For my whole family deals with dead people.
And I am a buddhist.
Buddhist believe that as long as u are 'straight'
in your doings, u need nt be afraid of these souls...

Went to watch The Dark Knight last Saturday at J8.
Saw Ah Di there with a friend..
Dear dear was the one who saw him first and alerted me
My bro saw him and was shocked when
he knew that Ah Di is the same age as me..
Ah Di simply look too young to be my age~
(That's a compliment, ok?!)

Going to Santosa this coming Sat
Company Outing
Family Day~
Looking forward to it
But think there'll be another hole in my pocket..
Haiz~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:26 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Dunno what's wrong with my baby Rhys
Cried at the sight of my mother..
Now he dun even want to lie down on the mattress
He only wants my helper to carry him..

Amanda's baby will be having her full month
celebration in another 2 weeks time..
Buffet...
Asked her to reserved 6 slots for me..
My whole family will be there..

Feeling quite troubled lately...
Sometimes I find that I'm someone who can't take hardship..
Like what happened to my job..
Nothing too serious actually..
It's just that the attitude of that woman makes the time in office unbearable..
I'm thinking of looking for another job..
Seriously, I can stand u pointing out my mistake if i did something wrong..
But i can't stand it when someone show me face..
I'm not anyone to you.. Dun show me this kind of face...
But come to it, I also understand that work is like this
no matter which Co. Is it..
This Co. is bad, the next Co. I go to might be even worse..
Think that woman just got out at the wrong side of the bed..
Things will be better, *keeping my fingers crossed*

Dear Dear go around telling people that
he's going to try for the 4th baby
I wonder if he really yearns for a girl
or he thinks that our current situation isn't bad enough..
I want a daughter too...
But Given the current economic situation
I doubt we can have another baby.
Inflation is at 26yrs high..
And it's still going up..
SGD is going stronger..
People are becoming poorer..
We can now find no more $2 food in hawker centre.
The cheapest now would be at least $2.50
Standard of living will only be going up & not down..
To keep a competitive market
Government is stopping Co. to rise workers' pay.
How to handle like this??
The rich is getting richer wile the poor is getting poorer..
I really thinks that I should get another
part time job to earn more money..
Should really tighten my belt..
Eat lesser and spend only on necessary items..
Haiz... Life is so hard now..
How to afford another baby??
Am considering to opt for the IUD (contraceptive method)
Told my sis about it, but she was against it..
She said IUD prevents implantation
and not fertilization..
It's still the same as abortion..
Haiz...
Am really vexed..
Actually was thinking of the using the Mirena IUD
After reading some reviews about it
Found that it will cause depression and stuffs
So changed my mind to the Copper IUD
And now my sis said this..
I dunno what method I can use again..
Tried the pills and the patch before..
But I always forgot to take my pills
and for the patch, it will leave a black &
sticky outline when u take it down after 1 week...
Haiz.. Seems like no method of contraceptive is right..
Should i go ahead and use the Copper IUD??
Or should i just stay natural???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:20 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

Quite unhappy day at work
The boss secretary,
who is also the one in charge of me
had a very bad mood today
She threw her tantrum and gave me a face
for no apparent reason.
I dunno what i did wrong..
Maybe it was because I was back from lunch 15 mins late..

I made a blunder today again...
Forgotten to keep the switch and lock the cupboard before i leave..
Guess I'll get a earful coming Monday morning..
Dun really like this Co.
Find it very political..
Got to be very careful in everything you do and everything you say
Boss' sons are always around..
And I can't stand the High & Mighty look on them
Come to think of it.. It's normal for the High Management Staff
to have this kind of arrogance.
What I truly can't stand is hw arrogant other ppl are
especially ***** (better mention no names here~)
But what can I do??
I'll be fulfilling the 3 months probation period in end of August..
Guess most likely I won't be able to pass the probation
That lady is so particular about everything..
She wants me to be alert when sometimes she's not that alert herself..
What can I do??
She has been working there for more than 8 years..
While I'm only there for only 8 weeks...
Haiz~ Gotta keep a look out on jobs soon..
Any good job to intro??

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:25 PM

I don't like to keep unhappy things in my heart..
I try to take it as nothing happen and do things as per normal
I'm learning how to forgive ppl and to be forgiven.
It's a long & difficult road, I know..
But nothings gonna stop me..
If you're not happy with anything, you tell me
If you think that I'm not up to your standard, sack me..
Dun treat me like I've owe you a million bucks..
Even this doesn't works on me when my mum did it

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:15 PM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Went down to the office and got the CD-Roms today..
Many many CDs, I think at least 20 of them..
Together with text books and work books.
Decided to zap all books into 3 copies,
so all of them have their own copies...
$888 for all, it's still very expensive lorx~P

Nothing to blog about these days..
Thought of ending my blog..
Guess not much ppl care to read anyway..
But after giving it some thoughts..
Who cares?!
I might as well keep it and log-in to pour out
whenever I want to..

Amanda came to my house today
I lent her my breast pump cos she say
hers is a manual pump and she feel tired
after trying to pump out the milk..
-Mine is an electric wan..
So i lent her mine and taught her some
ways to massage her breast to increase the milk flow
And passed her that bottle of Fernugreek too..
And some disposable panties as well.. Lolx~
I have more space for my own things now..
Finally!!!

Saw Robin at Ubi today
This morning was raining so heavily..
So instead of taking bus 76 to work
I took 55 to Ubi and trf to bus 63.
Saw him at the bus stop where i alight
If he didnt called me, I would not have recognize him..
But did nt talk as I was almost late for work..
Haiz~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:16 PM

Monday, July 21, 2008

Made a very rush decision yesterday
Went to FORUM for the A* Programme Road Show
Read it from the forum that it's good
Many mummies recommend me getting it
But it's quite costly though
So there i went, to take a look at the programme..
The promoter there showed me the
Phonics and English starter set
And the mathematics set upon request.
I'm quite attracted to the programmes they offer in the mathematics set
Before going down I was only thinking of getting the Phonics set
which cost $160.
But after seeing the English & Mathematics set
I decide to get the starter set instead.
The promoter asked me to get the whole thing that can be used
for pre-school all the way to Primary 6.
As the price is quite steep, I stick to getting the starter set
which cost $888.
Hubby will be going down to their office to collect the CD-Rom tml.
The first thing that Travis asked me is:
'Mummy, have you got the CD-Rom already??'
I told him no..
But I've already pay for it.. And will be getting it within these 2 days..
He was thrilled!!!
This little precious of mine.. He really make me proud of him sometimes..
Though he's playful and very stubborn at times..
But he's a good big brother who knows how to take care of his younger brothers...
Academic wise, though he's not as bright as other children his age
But he can still catch up if he put in hardwork..
Sometimes I really cannot believe that Travis is already such a big boy
It's like yesterday when I gave birth to him..
Time really flies~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:01 PM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Peta sent a letter to Sharon Stone
Requesting her to do a brain scan
More can be found at: http://blog.peta.org/archives/2008/07/sharon_stonecol.php?c=weekly_enews

'It seems to get harder with every step I take'
This is a quote I saw in friendster..
And it's just the right words to describe my situation now.
Relationship between hubby & me is rocky..
We might end up in divorce anytime.
I have 3 kids, I dun wan then to have a broken family..
It's the responsibility of the parents to ensure that the kids
live in a safe (at least) environment..
Living with my in-law is the best choice for my kids..
You may wonder why not staying with my own mother is the best choice
I have my own reasons and I dun wish to voice it out here..

I'm feeling so down recently
I dun wish to think too much..
I'm trying my best to make the marriage work
But it seems like I'm the only one that's putting in the effort

Have you heard of the phrase
'It takes two hands to clap'??
I totally agree...
If one is putting in effort and the other one is not..
Nothing will come out of the relationship..

I really dunno what I should do now..
I hate being a mother of 3..
If I only have Travis now,
life would be totally different..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:14 PM

Taken on Sat in St James:

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:29 AM

Friday, July 18, 2008

St James last Saturday was a disastrous!!
First, we should have a frenx driving us there
But because of someone insist on meeting us and
going down to the club together,
that frenx doesn't wanna drive us there anymore..

YYY celebrated his birthday at Powerhouse
So we go down and had a drink...
His frenx were like so scared that we finish up the whole bottle
that everytime we want to pour ourselves a drink
they practically snatch the bottle from us.
Fine with that..
Anyway, we're there to enjoy ourselves..
Not to fight with people over a bottle of Martell..

Drank a cup of Lamborghini before we proceed to D'fly.
I was already tipsy when i left Powerhouse
Went over to D'Fly and spend the night there..
Going from one table to another looking for frenx~
Met quite a few people there that I have not seen for a very long time
Like Meiyin, Tania, Geraldine, etc..
Feeling more sleepy as the night progressed
More sleepy than tipsy though I drank quite a fair bit..
Stayed there till closing..

It's quite a fun night overall...
I really enjoy myself~

Today is my co's 180th Anniversary Dinner
Everyone is back home getting ready..
Except for small fries like me..
We have to stay in the office till the official 'off-work' time
The office is cold and quiet
but I like it.. Haha!!
Eat snake time..
But it's not that I wanna eat snake
It's that the bosses not around
So i have nothing much to do also..

There's a magazine in today's Straits Time
introducing the history of my Co.
So now I know that the founder of my Co'
is Edward Boustead from England
And there's a office in London too..
And we actually deals in Spices when the Co was first started
But as time goes by, we deal with many other things except spices..
Got to know more on my Co after reading it..
It's like reading History Text..
Haha~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:56 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Everything is over..
Life goes on as it is..
I'm glad..
I'll treasure everything more after this..
I promise~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 8:26 AM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Loots of the month~

Smocked Grecian Babydolls from Old Navy

Puff Sleeve Button-Front Tops from Old Navy

Women's D'Orsay Flats from Old Navy

F21 Hinge Cuff Watch from Forever21

Hoop & Stud Super Set from Forever21

Low heels from Mondo

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:04 PM

Friday, July 11, 2008

Busy day!!!
Helped Huddah with her documents..
Print, sort, bind/file..
Woo~
Going dizzy from looking at the docs..

Heard of Dopplegongers??

Got up in the middle of the night
feeling funny in the stomach
So i used the washroom in my in law's room
I saw a little boy at the end of the bed when i reached my in law's room
Looked like Travis..
The clothes he wore was the pyjamas Travis was wearing
I was about to ask why he was not asleep,
but something held me back..
I stand beside and looked properly..
Den i saw my boy was sleeping beside my father in law
I looked back to that kid again..
He looked at me, looked away and then I see nothing!!!
I thought it was my illusion..
I didnt think too much, used the toilet and went back to bed..
But just now, while helping Huddah
This incident suddenly some into my mind
And it sent a chill down my spine
I am quite sure i saw someone there..
But... Is it a ghost??
I asked myself..
Is it my child?? The one i aborted years back??
Or is it a dopplegonger of my Travis??
Read on Dopplegongers before..
It's very unlucky to see someone else's dopplegongers
Read a story in TSGS
This person saw his wife's dopplegongers
and on the very same day, something happened to his wife..
I really hope it's my illusion..
Or if i really see 'someone' there..
I hope that it's those type of thing taking the form of Travis
But never never the Dopplegonger..

I'm really worried~
Very very worried...
Thinking of this now as I write..
I'm still shivering from the fear...
Pray hard that it's not the Doplegongers
Nothing must happen to Travis~
Nothing!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:32 PM

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Exam in October
And i know nuts now...
How to pass, like that??
Haiz~ Headache ah!!!

Am waiting for this movie to be shown in cinema

The Mummy III
Tomb of The Dragon Emperor

Release Date: 31 July 2008

Seems like a nice movie, but the comment in Yahoo! Movies
doesn't seem too good~
Hmm... But I think I'll still watch..
I just love Mummies~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:40 AM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

A bad day to start with
Was raining cats & dogs this morning
Woke up 20 mins later than usual..
Ask my helper to find me those foldable unbrella
But she got me my sons unbrella instead
becos i told her 'short umbrella'
(Arghh!!!!!!!)

Was late for work today
Went out of my house @ 7.30pm
Reach my work place only @ 9.15am
ZzzZzz....
What a day!!!!!!!!!!!

Was busy with the forum that i started to neglect my blog
Yes... It's more fun chatting with mothers who have kids
the age of my 3 precious...
Rather than to update a blog that i dun even know if anyone will read
Talking to these mothers and reading their replies to other mothers
change my view on the ways to take care of kids..
I know more things now that i dun know in the past..
Isnt that a good thing???
Thank Yuhui for bringing this webby to my attention..
Really a big Thank you!

Seems like y social life in office is better now..
I talk to more ppl..
I try to open up and take the initiative to talk

(Ms Molly is chaing me home~ gotta update when I'm home.. Stay Tuned~)

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:08 PM

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Just came back from fly~
Went with Ferlyn and Xinyi..
Find the atmosphere there rather boring tonight
Seems like it's nt as happening as before..
Standard drop~

Drank quite a bit..
But still couldn't lift my mood up
to enjoy the party
Maybe I'm just nt in the mood for party tonight
Or maybe my mother-nature is at it again..
I'm worried my kids would wake up while I'm partying..
Worried that my mother in law would be unhappy
if she finds me nt in bed when she wake up
to feed my baby..
Or maybe like what Ferlyn say
I'm old at heart..
Too old (at heart) for partying
Who knows~
Whatever it is...
I just cant enjoy myself tonight..
And i think i would never want to go party again..

Chat with Ferlyn just nw at fly
while we're having our smoking break
Then all of a sudden this common frenx
came into the topic~
We were gossiping abt her..
And i told Ferlyn hw much i hate / despise her
But after everything..
Ferlyn said she find that I still care abt her

Maybe~
9 yrs of frenxship..
We're always so close tol each other..
I really took u as my sister
I tried to give in to you no matter hw unreasonble u are
I know u did alot for me too...
But our frenxship just cant withstand the test of time..
Maybe I'm just nt the kind of frenx u want
Someone whom can go out with you evertime u want o meet out
Or someone who would support u in whatever thing u do..
I just can't..
If i think that what u're doing id wrong
I'll just speak my mind~
Maybe thay offend u??
I dunno~
Even though I hate to admit
But i know deep in my heart
I still care for you..
I would still read ur blog every now and then...
trying to know hw are u getting on in life..
But like what i said..
It's impossible for us to go back to hw we used to be..
I know u wouldn't want it too...
No point being frenx again when we hv so much
hard feelings for each other..
I'm happy with my life now..
Who knows 10 yrs down the road
I might not even remember who u are??
Life's unpredictable~
As long as one die when i leave this world..
And i know that I dd not waste this trip here..
I'll be happy and satisfied~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:47 AM

Friday, July 04, 2008

Need some opinions~
Free to leave any comments~
Would appreciates lots~

Will be having my O level Maths Exam in Oct.
I've gone thru the 10 yrs series and found that
most fo what i learned last time went back to my teachers
Was comtemplating on getting a tutor to refresh my memory
and teach me those that I've never learn before (ie: Sets)
But what's holding me back is the fees~
Not too ex, the tutor charge quite reasonably
$28/hr.
Once a week for 2hrs, that's make $224/mth
I'm quite tight on my budget now
And even though I can afford this amount
But i feel the pinch (Quite a miser, I know)

Now I'm stuck~
To hire or not to hire??
Anyone?? Pls help!!

Blog~
Dear dear went to Andrew's Birthday Party last night @ Boat Quay
It's some kind of K-Pub
What happened last night makes me feel ........
I dunno how i should put it..
It's just that...
I should say: Ppl would do funny things under the influence of Alcohol

Listen to 95.0 FM this morning when i was in the bus to work
It's Independance Day today
(according to US time, it'll be tml for the ppl in the states)
So the Flying Dutchman and Glenn wished ppl out there a
Happy Independance Day..
And you guess what??
Ppl sms in and call them names~
Criticised them~
Dun you think it's absurd???
Being called names because they wished ppl Happy something??
Those ppl out there...
they're really too 'bo liao'
It make them seem so petty as well

Read in the news last night that one Singaporean was arrested
in the bomb-thingy in Indonesia.
I feel so sad but relieved that they did not get to do as planned
Why hurt the innocence??
The old, the kids, the babies, the men and women
Why bring harm to them??
Do you feel good seeing innocent lifes being taken away??
Innocent ppls lifes are like trash to those baddies
Why do this??
Do Allah taught you all these??
I dun think so..
I've never read the Quran before
But i heard from Malay frenx that Allah taught them good.
Be nice to neighbours
Dun drink, dun gamble
Dun lie~
All good things..
Virtues~
But why in the name of Allah do these ppl commit such sin??
Do you think Allah would let u into heaven when u die
after bringing so much harm to the society??
NO!!!
Allah would SLAM the door to heaven shut in your face~

Think of all these ppl~
Think like a human~
Stop acting like some kind of cold-blooded animals~
This world can only go on when there's peace..

Sometimes, I just wonder what's going on in the mind of these ppl..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:16 AM

Thursday, July 03, 2008

I can't believe that there are ppl who would get angry with you
just because you did not attend their wedding
Maybe a little upset, That's understandable.

That fellow can be so upset that he changed his cell phone number
Lie that he's in China when he's already back in Singapore
Why do that??
Is it really because Joe did not attend your wedding?
Or you doesnt wanna pay us back that $200?

I dunno, really...
I can't help but wonder..
If you really wanted to pay us back den why lie that you're still in China?
If that's because u dun wanna see us because you're still angry over the wedding incident,
Den why dun u ask Ronnie to pass the money back to us??
I'm not very rich you know??
You promised to pay back by the end of May..
But what time is it now??
It's already July
The last time u said you'll pay us by 30 June
Msn u on that day to ask to arrange for a meet-up
but no reply..
Same thing happened the last few times i msn u..
And what did u say last night??
You did reply??
Ya!! Of course...
Only after I said ugly things to you..
Feel hurt / angry???
Den be a man and dun be a big pussy!!!
I borrowed u the money because u said u need it for ur big day
and promised to pay by the end of the month u borrowed from me..
Why lie?? Why break your promise??
If u are inconvenient to pay,
at least msn me since u say u are in China.
Even if i didnt log-in, u can still leave a msg...
It will show when i log-in the next time...
It's only you want or dun want...
I'm fine bu whatever comments u have on me
Whether I'm a bug or I'm childish
I'm alright~
Cos' I know I'm not doing anything wrong~

I can look u right into ur eyes without any fear or guilt~
But can u be sure u can do the same thing to me???
You know who's the one looking for trouble~
I'm not someone to be trifled with~
I'm already trying to end the arguement..
Or at least I wasnt the one who keep on saying those
irrelevant things...
I kept on asking for a date..
And what answer i got from you??
Nothing~
You dun even wanna give me a date~
And continue saying those SHIT!!!!!!
What for?? Fun???
You start the game, so dun blame for anything~
I say again:

I AM NOT SOMEONE TO BE TRIFLED WITH!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:07 AM

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

The rising price in petroleum, ERP gantries all over Singapore
have taken a toll on most car owners.
Most ppl have make switches to smaller cars,
public transport, or to motorbikes.

Heard in Class 95.0 on the varieties on what ERP stands for.
Here are what i heard:

1)Ever Rising Price
2)Even Rickshaw Pay
3)Ever Rising Price
4)Exceptiobal Remuneration Package

Isn't it amazing that a simple ERP can stand for so many things??

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:20 PM