Under the pressure to look for another article for econs project. It's going to be the 5th week and we have to really rush through our project.
Another round of discussion coming up this Sunday. Till now, i have totally no idea how to start on this project. Am asking around for help. Hopefully I'll get some~
Shitty day at work again..
What's wrong with those sitting in Chennai? Life in Chennai is so boring that you have to stir up some troubles once in a while?
They shot an email to my manager over an airport transfer arrangment. And that manager was like 'Please liaise with them before you make any arrangements.'
That's crappy!
It's just an arrangement with the hotel being cancelled. There's no charges involved. And we didn't even email that woman in Chennai, we emailed the hotel directly, why is she so upset??
Hate it when people who don't know how things work try to teach you how to do things. If you're so clever, why don't you do it yourself??
Irritating!
Sometimes it really suck to work in big organisation!!
Damn! Why is the RMS Team's line engaged all the time!!!
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snowflakes at 2:32 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Something happened today that reinforce the negative feeling I have towards my maternal family. I dont understand why my sis will even say such thing?? She was still asking if I'm going over this weekend. And when she ask againa and I replied, she told me something that is obviously hinting for the opposite. If you dont want me to go over, just tell me straight in the face. Why say such thing??
Your feeling is feeling and we have to treat it with tenderness. Mine??
Fine! 就当我自断后路。 反正当我需要帮忙时,你们也不会伸出援手的。
So... What's the dif??
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snowflakes at 12:10 PM
I need to start learning how to keep my thoughts to myself. No point telling others how I feel, especially those not involved. Telling them is only as good as passing my burdens to them. So, what for??
Met the rest out for project discussion today. We have chosen a few articles and will decide on Monday so we could start on it soon.
Dear dear off work at 2am tonight.. Boring.. Hate it when I have to spend my weekend nights alone..
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snowflakes at 12:50 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
I feel slighted. I don't feel good that you're treating me like some kind of thrash. You need me, you find me. When you don't, you don't even bother to keep up with a conversation.
Fine! I know I am no one to you. No one to you indeed!!! That means that I have no rights to expect anything from you. And also NOT to do anything for you!!
I am not going to do anything for you anymore! Nothing at all!!!
Disclaimer: I am not referring to my hubby.. But someone else.
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snowflakes at 3:34 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2010
I just want
A man worthy of my love. A man to take care of me. A man worthy enough to be the father of my sons. A man to be there for me whenever I need someone to be by my side. A true man.
Why can't you be that man??
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snowflakes at 8:24 PM
Hate the feeling of being used. Such feeling will make me do irrational things & become super defensive.
I don't mind doing you favours without any return, but not to the point of being used!!!
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snowflakes at 7:07 PM
Friday, May 14, 2010
Request to speak with my line manager this morning. Coincidentally, my senior manager wants to speak to me as well.
They agreed that I was being exploited and, though did not agree to hire another, agree to reduce my workload gradually.
Hopefully things will be better after this.
Plan to switch to part-time within these 2 years. So I will have time to take care of the kids. There is no one better than a mother to take care of the kids. =) Dun you agree?
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snowflakes at 9:16 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Seems like a long time since I made any posting.
School starts.. Hence, the reduction in posting =(
If you are a frequent news reader of Yahoo! Singapore, you would have probably come across this news on the 'mother tongue weightage'.
Saw some comments posted by some Singaporean (assuming they are Chinese themselves, cos I reckon other races would refer to their own language in this case)
and it really make my eyes widen in surprise.
Some were like condemning the government for not lowering the weightage, while others were criticising the Singapore Chinese Chamber of Commerce & Industry.
From names-calling to accusations, etc..
I mean what the hell are these for???
Just because your child can't do well in Chinese, MOE must lower the weighting? If my son can't do well in English, Mathes & Science, can I make noise ask MOE to lower the weightages of these too and use the excuse as aforesaid as justifications of my action?
Dumb asses!
What has this loser here have against Chinese? From the way he/she have her nick, chances are he/she is a Ang Mo wannabe. Speaking of folding the tail between the legs walking out when the MM speak out, this person here looks like one~ =P
Ya, right! Let the child have an easy way out. How do you know your child is not up to that standard? Who are you to voice out? You know why Singapore need expats?? Because of stupid parents like you! Giving the child an easy way out whenever he starts to whine that something is too difficult. Idiot!
The Government is asking you to be racial harmony. Not asking you to lose your cultural and your root. As a chinese, you know nothing about the language is as good as a British know nothing about English! And just a side note, sense of belonging need not be reminded. It is constantly within you, if you really have it. Do you need someone to remind you to eat all the time? You'll eat when you are hungry, right? So stop whining, Dumb Ass!!!
One of the idiots even said something like 'it's not essential to learn the language in order to learn the culture'. Hello! If you don't even know the language, how are you going to learn the culture?!
Though I'm against what was previously 'proposed' and also half of the comments I saw, I do agree that the current system do put some minorities at a disadvantage. But then again, decisions will always be made in the interest of the majorities. It would be funny to be 'fair' to the minority and 'sacrifice' the majority, right??
Looking at the Malays and the Indians, I have never seen any of them being ashame of their own race or culture, or sounding they have difficulties in learning their own language.
Comparing Chinese to the Indians, where both have at least few thousand years of history, don't you think that Tamil is also a difficult language to grasp?? They have over 200 alphabets in their word structure, Mandarin have only some strokes to remember, how hard could it be compared to Tamil?
Lowering the weighting of Mother Tongue? Be prepared to breed more Ang Mo wannabes.
I can't imagine one day when my kids or my grandchildren know nothing of the chinese language. It would be a total disgrace!!!
Mother's day - A day to celebrate a mother's love. In recognition of the effort they put in for their children.
Ironically, on this supposingly special day, my stupid mind is churning up unhappy memories again. Of all days, it chooses to show the past before me like film today.
I still hold grudges against her. I know it's unhealthy, it's eating me from the inside bit by bit. It's going to the extent that it's making me psychotic. But I can't let it go!
The words she said to me. The things she did to me.
Ya, I know.. Let it go.. She's my mum afterall.. The one who born me. I can't choose the kind of mother I want. It's fate that brought us together. 三世修得同船渡, 百世修得共枕眠。 能做母女,要修多少世呢??
And since she has regretted what she did, why should I still hold these grudges against her?
The reason: The cut is too deep.
The remorse she claim she felt, I think it's more to what she did to my sis, not me. She always says her conscience is clear. She never did anything against her conscience (toward me). So what's the catch? I am nothing but thrash to her. Cos the way she treated me is the way I would treat a thrash.
I was more understanding towards her before I was a mother. And now I am a mother, I couldn't understand the way she did things. Cos I know how a mother would feel, do, react under circumstances. I experience it first hand when I became a mother, therefore the inability to comprehend her past actions.
Call me unfillial.... But I just can't let it go...
Principal of Economics - I'm learning the basic level and yet I have trouble comprehending this subject. I know this module will not be easy (or at least not as easy as the previous modules) and being the kia-su-cannot-lose kind of person I am, I consulted my sis on the project requirements we got from the lecturer right after the first lesson. That is because I want to have a clear picture of what is expected of us and what should we deliver.
Lol! I can already hear people saying 'why so kiasu?? Can pass can liao! Why stress the hell outta yourself??'
Well, we pay good money for this course for the purpose of 'upgrading' ourselves, we should do our best and get good results right?? If not, it would be as good as letting ourselves down. Don't you think so??
To me, I think - if you dun do your best helping yourself, when will you show your best? On a deeper thought, there is really nothing worth our best if we are even stingy in putting effort on ourselves.
Don't get me wrong, I am not a philosopher who can tell you the way of life, the truth of life and whatnot. I don't even aspire to be one, dun worry! I am also not one who is even mature in her thinking! Hub always say I am childish, and I believe what he say most of the time. (Ya, no exception this time too =P) I am just an average Joe driven by greed and self-interest.
靠山,山倒。靠人,人跑。靠自己最好!
Understand what I mean now??
Guess you do... Good!
Now, back to this 'studies' thing. Realised that what I will be learning in PSB for my accounts is different with what Kaplan taught. Not totally different, just some of them. We were told not to bring the textbooks for both modules this time round as we will be mostly using slides. Good! Big load off my shoulder!!!
Another classmate wishes to join our group. For whatever reason, we dunno. I am quite against the idea cos I think that we have already build up the rapport to work between us. With an additional coming in, it will disrupt this 'rapport'. But from what we observe, this guy is quite serious in his studies, keen in learning and is very interactive during lessons. He might be an asset to us if he joins us. We actually had a 'meeting' after class last evening to talk about this, but we couldn't come to a conclusion due to the absence of another groupmate and the seriousness of this matter (Yes, it is serious! The decision concern your overall scores for 2 modules, tell me now do you think that's serious??).
I went around asking my groupmates 'So when do you want to start on the project work?' Everyone was like stunned for a second and give me a 'huhhh...!!!' reaction. (Hahahaha!!) The question was posed to disturb them cos I know all the lazy worms in their bodies are still wriggling around. No one wants to start on the project that fast, not even I!@@ So we agree to start on the week of the 3rd lesson; after more info was given to us on the requisites.
So, let us just enjoy these 2 weekends before hell starts for us!
I worked late but you don't wait up
My bones ache and i'm cleaning the place up
Sometimes i don't even know i care
I sit down take off my make-up
I lay down but you don't wake up
Sometimes i wonder if you know i'm there
I can't remember the last time you
Told me i'm beautiful, and i can't remember
Last time you said anything at all
I'm a woman
A woman with a heart
And i deserve your all
I'm not some girl who don't know what she wants
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
'cause being just your woman is not enough
Now i hope that you don't wake up
When it's too late to make up
You'll be the one that's alone and that's sad
In time you'll find somebody
The truth is she'll never be me
And that's when you're going to miss what we had
When all i really needed to hear was "you're beautiful"
All i really needed to hear was anything at all
I'm a woman
A woman with a heart
And i deserve your all
I'm not some girl who don't know what she wants
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
'cause being just your woman is not enough
I'm not your friend who only needs you sometimes
And if i'm your lady
You got to treat me like...
I'm a woman
A woman with a heart
And i deserve your all
I'm not some girl who don't know what she wants
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
'cause being just your woman is not enough
A woman needs your heart
A woman needs your all
A woman needs your everything
I'm a woman
And i need to be touched
And i need to be loved
And i deserve your everything
I'm a woman
I'm a woman
I'm a woman
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be I'll be she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night [Chorus:] He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, The kind of flawless I wish I could be She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause [Repeat Chorus] So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light I'll put his picture down and maybe Get some sleep tonight He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do He's the time taken up, but there's never enough And he's all that I need to fall into.. Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
Last day before the start of the next module (which is tomorrow). I guess the only 2 things to be excited about are: 1) we will soon be learning new things; and 2) I'll be seeing my mates twice weekly for the next few months.
Busy like hell recently! Face exploitation (on work) everyday.. Poor me, right?!
The 3 weeks' break mould me into a bigger couch potato (I know I am already a big one =P). Thinking about the class tomorrow make me feel so sick all of a sudden. Just the thought of the projects, the revisions, the meet-ups that comes together make my head swell double its size. I'm in the so-lazy-so-not-motivated-still-wanna-slack kind of mood. Can someone help tune that back to the correct frequency, please??
Had dinner at my 三伯&三婶 house last evening. Woo~ Nice people.. It was the first time I met my cousins Yiling and her brothers (I forgot their name!!). We were there for like 2 hours or so for dinner then we proceed to Hougang Plaza for our K-session.
Didn't really enjoy the session. Wanted to sang till my voice went hoarse, but obviously I did not. (Cos if I did, the fiirst sentence of this post would be 'ranting' on the session last night.) Went home at around 1am; not sure what time the others went home.. Packed Chee Cheong Fun with prawns for supper on my way home. Had it when I reached home. FB for a while, and was already knocked out before 2am.
Going for my pedicure later at 3pm before going for my facial at 5pm later. It's a free trial from NYS. Aries said it's good, so I went online and check. Stumble upon a link where they said to fill up the particulars to claim a free trial. So I did, and was contacted a few days later. Made an appoitment for later this evening.. If it's good, I might just do my treatment there. My facial skin problem is getting from bad to worse. I thought it would be better if I stop smoking, but apparently it doesn't go the way I thought. Many asked me to go see doctor but I am afraid of all the medicine the Drs will give me, so I rather spend a bit more and go for facial treatment. I know the price for a facial treatment at NYS is steep, but I have totally no idea how much per session is. Will check it out today when I'm there for my facial.
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