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Sunday, June 29, 2008

Haven't been updating about my youngest recently
Went for his 3months check up the other day.
As his 2 elder brothers contracted HFMD the other day,
he can't take the 6in1 jab.
Gotta wait for another 2 weeks or so.
Next appointment will be on 8 July.
Weight: 7.8kg
Head circumference: 41cm
Woo~ Big head!
Lolx~

This boy got a quick temper..
Doesn't like lying down or sitting in the rocker chair
Likes ppl to carry him and walk around.
Very talkative...
Wants you to talk to him all day long
It'll be best if u carry him and play 'high up'

Here are some recent pics of him to share:

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:43 PM

Friday, June 27, 2008

Went to K-Box with Ferlyn & Meilin last night.
ML wasn't in good mood, so didn't really talk much last night..
We chatted about one of our common friend..
Got to know that she actually changed alot
The things she do..
I really dunno what she's thinking in her mind..

Dear dear was there with me last night..
With him ard, K-session is never boring~
Talked to him over our supper after the session ended
He pointed out my good points and bad points
and explained things to me..
Then I understood...
Though I'm tend to think twice before doing things...
And seems to have solution for every problems..
But I'm just too 'into details' (in another word, calculative)
That actually push my frenx away from me..

He gave me some advice and make me realized that
I should not always be so serious
Should relax when i should be
Thanks to him, I start looking @ life from a different view..

Travis came home last night with a list of
chinese words for his spelling...
English Spelling on Monday
Chinese Spelling on Tuesday
3 words for each language
6 words to learn each week
I'm so scared he might be over loaded..
But that's the way Singapore Educational System is
Can't be help
He have to grow up sooner or later..
There'll be more stressful things in life he have to face
Guess I just have to face it with him tgt now
Let him learn hw to handle stress @ a young age
rather than dunno what to do when in stress when he's older..

Gotta start him on Mathes next week..
Simple addition & subtraction
Most probably will start him on abacus at the end of July..
Gotta source for classes now..

Wonder if i should let him learn some martial arts
or things like that to strengthen his body
Actually was thinking of letting him learn Taiji
But my mother vote against it..
She said that he's too young
But I thnk that this kind of thing should start young..
Different generation, different mindcept..
That's call generation gap..
Gotta listen to her..
she's my mum afterall..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:47 PM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

I think the ppl in office finds me wierd
I tend to hv this dreamy look in my face all day long..
I dun talk much to ppl either..
To them, I think i must be some kind of alien in a
human body dropped down from some wierdy planet..

Lolx~
But who cares?
I'm happy with my life as the way it is
I dun like talking to 'strangers'
Cos Mama says no
So I did
And it slowly becomes a habit..
becomes part of me..
Can't blame me..
I'm not being 'dao', I'm just being myself..

Ms Molly is not ard in the afternoon..
!/2 day leave..
Went off at ard 1.30pm..
And left me all alone in the office
So sad~
Without her ard, I feel so lonely!!!!!
no one to talk to... =(((

Sometimes I wonder what a guy wants??
Or rather, what Joe wants??
I used to be so devoted to him..
All i want is him and no one else..
But he kept giving me negative feelings..
Make me feel like I'm some kind of irritating pest
that stick to him all day long..
Whenever he came back from camp (last time)
I would be very happy and try to talk to him
I would say 'Hey, you're back!' in a very happy tone
with smile over my face..
But he would say things like 'isn't it obvious'
and it would hurt my feeling..
I learn to take things easy as yrs passed by
I learn to lower my expectation..
I dun do 'irritating' things to irritate him
But he said that I've changed.
And that he no longer is sure if I still love him..
I wanted to tell him that all these changes are made
because he forced me to
If he had not make me feel so hurt
I would have not make any changes..

Yes, I still love you...
But the feeling is different now...
Things can't be the same again..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:35 PM

Bought a new phone yesterday

Dun really like it

Bought it because hubby said that it's better

than Nokia 6500 slider

Bought SE G700

Something like PDA with normal hp function.

Got exactly the same colour as the pic below:

Quite Fun to use. But still not use to using SE as I've been using Nokia phones for quite some time..

The phone is now in hubby's hand. He wanna test the phone for me, he said..

Will be my turn to use the phone tml. Will update on the functions tml after I've test it personally..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:58 AM

Monday, June 23, 2008

Travis had his first spelling test today
And the result??
Full marks!!!
I'm so proud of him!!!
My efforts finally paid off...
All the time spent coaching him...
At least he show some results..

Start teaching him next week's spelling words..
And some chinese words as well...
Think I gonna start on Maths next month
So I can enroll him for abacus lesson by end of July
Dun wanna stress him too much..
But no choice...
It's too competitive between the kids nowadays
Gotta let him learn more things to boost his self confidence..
Hope everything go smoothly..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:08 PM

Human beings always wish for those they can never get....

Why dream??

Cos of what Einstein said: 'Ren Ying Meng Xiang Er Wei Da'

That's what make us superior to other species of living things

I just simply love dreaming....

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:03 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Went over to Sam Aunt's place just nw..
Brought Travis & Dariz over tgt with hubby
They were so happy when they reach there
Their little aunt Renee and uncle Ray & uncle Ryan
have so many toys to share with them
They went into their 'study room' where my aunt place
lotsa toys and picked a 3 wheel scooter each..
They love it so much that they only play
with the scooter the 2 hours that we're there
Came home and calculated my budget for next month
Guess if I try to tighten my belt by that litte bit,
I might have enough $$$ to buy them a scooter each..

Wll be going to toys'r'us next weekend to get them one
Hopefully it wont be too ex..
I've only a budget of $80 for 2
Haiz~
Feel so bad sometimes
wonder why am i so stupid to hv so many kids
when I'm still not financially stable
I can't give the best to my kids..
Haiz~
If only I could turn back time....

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:30 AM

Friday, June 20, 2008

Have been reading alot on abortion lately
Have returned to Elliot Institute webby
a place where i rather not 'go'
They hv been sending me updates frequently these 2 weeks
Normally I would have just deleted it without reading
But frequent visit to the Singapore Motherhood website
made me see hw much woman out there need info on abortion
Some nuts can even say that it's not a child if it's not fully form.
That foetus have his heartbeat on the 28th day
A baby with heartbeat is not a living thing???
What does your brain contains of??
Coconut water??
I really couldn't believe it when she said something like that
She's really a pea-brain with no common knowledge at all!!!

Back to what I was saying..
So I start a thread in the forum.
Telling every women out there that is considering
abortion to read before they really go for it
Ppl who hv never been through it have no idea
what it will & can do to you
The kind of pain and feeling of remorse
I doubt it will ever go away

Here, I have to tell all ppl out there
Man, woman, old & young
A foetus is a life
They can feel pain.
Abortion = murder
Murdering your own child,
You're worst than a beast

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:28 PM

If i just think, and did not actually do it
Am i in the wrong also??

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:21 PM

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Been in this company for 3 weeks
Not bad~

Travis' school has closed down from 13-23 june due to HFMD.
Teacher has given him a spelling list to learn..
3 words every week.
Am busy with teaching him his spelling everyday
But i hv to say, he's a slow learner when it comes to studies..
Have asked him to write the words over for 10 times almost daily,
but till now he still makes mistake when i teat him..
That really worries me..
Not too worrying though..
Cos I'm also like this
I failed all my spelling test when i was in kindergarten.
But i still cope pretty well when i was in Primary school
Let's just hope that he'll cope with his primary school work when the time comes..

Started my working exercise the day before yesterday
Start from my void deck to AMK ITE towards ave 5
all the way to AMK ave 3 and back. That take me around 45mins.
Not very long distance though..
Think gotta start something more vigorous to shed away the extra pounds
Maybe gotta start taking the stair case instead of the lift..
That'll be more effective, I think..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:35 PM

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Have rebonded my hair a few times
but have never actually curl my hair before
Wonder hw would it look on me

I've seek professional advice
They say digital perm look good on me
But I'm having doubts
Cos you know...

Passed 3 months
Hair starting to fall
This will go on for about another month
After that, I'll go perm my hair

Wonder if I'll look nice on it

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:10 AM

Monday, June 16, 2008

I have a friend whose father disappeared in Mexico. The loss has been more painful for him than if his father had died in his arms. How can one grieve for a father who has simply disappeared? For that matter, how can one grieve for a child who has simply "vanished?"

Fathers and mothers of aborted children are like my friend. Each must struggle with how to grieve the loss of a person who "disappeared" from their lives. The fact is this person, who truly did exist and touched their lives -- with longings, memories of fear or joy, visual images, bodily sensations, and dreams of what could be -- is now gone - healing resources, information and articles from http://www.theunchoice.com/men.htm

That's how i feel even now
Nearly 6 yrs after what had happened
Sometimes, I feel that life might have
been very different with that little one ard
I feel so sad sometimes just thinking of hw it happened

I hate the one who made me go for the op'
But I can't hate her for she did it for my sake
She couldn't bear to see me ruin my own future..
But what she doesn't know is that by doing what she did
She ruined me...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:06 AM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

What's what???

What is this world coming to??

I'm so sick and tired of everything around me..

I'm so sick and tired of my life

I've no life!!!

Work, go home, take care of the kids..

I can't even go out as and when i like.

I can't even do things as i want to do..

I dun know when can i regain my freedom.

I know i will have my freedom back one day

when my kids have grown up

That'll be the time i'll hv my freedom back..

But my youngest is only 3 mths old...

Hw long do i hv to wait???

Another 21 yrs??

or 20 yrs and 9 mths to be exact??

Lolx....

！！！救命啊！！！

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:03 PM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Official eat-snake time permitted by Ms Molly
Lol~ Not exactly eat snake
It's just that Boss is not around
(Went for his golf session)
and there's nothing for me to do
So Molly pass me a stack of postage records
and asked me to update them in an exel spreadsheet
"Do it slowly" She said
Lolx~

I have been slacking since...

like.... after lunch??

Feels great when you're paid to do nothing

Yes, I know...

I'm a lazy bum...

But I'm hardworking too..

When i have to... *Keez*

Received a call from my son's childcare centre
They're doing a survey
Asking if it's ok to close down the centre for 10 days
They have, up to date, 12 cases of HFMD.
(Actually it's 13, because Travis' did not have a letter from Dr
to certified that he contracted HFMD, so in their record, it's only 12)
13 cases and they have to close down immediately
I say ok, of course
If you really have to close down, then what can i say??
Stop you from closing down??
Lolx~

I can't right??

Have not been clubbing for the past 2 weeks

Dun feel like clubbing

The crowd dun seem right

And i dun really enjoy when my hubby is not with me

(Yes! I'm a superglue, I just love the company of my man)

And when my mother in law have to help look after my baby for me

That just seem too irresponsible!!!

Can't blog anymore
Gotta transform into octopus now
START WORK!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:13 PM

Saturday, June 07, 2008

No I - Raghav
Girl you look so mesmerizing
You got me fantasizing
Your man's lost but you don't wanna find him
He's played you like a fool

Oh yeah I know you see me smiling
Maybe we shouldn't but we vibin'
Do you think that he would mind if
I took you for a dance or two

I've waited long enough
So please make up your mind
Because we're wasting precious time

I'm not gonna treat you like
Another girl on the side
No I... No I... No I... No I

No I can't bare to see you with him
When you should be with me
No I just can't stand to see you cry
No I
No I won't let you down
I'll be there when I should be around
No I can't be without you girl
For even one more night
No I

You ain't ever gonna change him
So tell me what you're contemplating
Baby why you keep me waiting
I don't know what to do

So you tried to tell him last night
Well that better be the last time
That you let the moment pass by
I can't get enough of you

I've waited long enough
So please make up your mind
Because we're wasting precious time

I'm not gonna treat you like
Another girl on the side
No I... No I... No I... No I

No I can't bare to see you with him
When you should be with me
No I just can't stand to see you cry
No I
No I won't let you down
I'll be there when I should be around
No I can't be without you girl
For even one more night
No I

No I can't bare to see you with him
When you should be with me
No I just can't stand to see you cry
No I
No I won't let you down
I'll be there when I should be around
No I can't be without you girl
For even one more night
No I

I see you holding hands
I gotta hold it back
You shoulda told him that
I am the only one girl
Won't you make up your mind so
I can move on in life knowing
That you're by my side
So many reasons for you to believe in our love

No I can't bare to see you with him
When you should be with me
No I just can't stand to see you cry
No I
No I won't let you down
I'll be there when I should be around
No I can't be without you girl
For even one more night
No I

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:13 PM

Let's work it out - Raghav

Oh lai kai pehla pehla pyar
Bhar kai ankhon mai khumar
Jaadu nagri pai aaya
Hai koi jadugar

Oh...Oh... yeah, yeah

So yet another day
Another fight
You break down and cry
And you swear that it's over
It seems you've pack your bags like every night
Girl I know inside
We could be so much more

But everytime the smallest thing goes wrong girl
You're out the door
You don't wanna deal with this pain anymore
Why can't you understand that somethings
Won't come easy in life
Work with me girl
It'll just take some time so...

I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out

Oh lai kai pehla pehla pyar
Bhar kai ankhon mai khumar
Jaadu nagri pai aaya
Hai koi jadugar

At every single point you'll turn around
Say I've let you down
That I no longer know you
How could you say to me that I've lost my way
When you're walking away
And I'm willing to give my all...

But everytime the smallest thing goes wrong girl
You're out the door
You don't wanna deal with this pain anymore
Why can't you understand that somethings
Won't come easy in life
Work with me girl
It'll just take some time so...

I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out

[Jahaziel Verse]
Ones again here we go through that old procedure
You screaming its over between us but I don't believe ya
You such a diva, a drama queen
Girl why you blowing up like a Osama's been
What you want a argument well I ain't speaking
We come to far now and I ain't leaving
If we gotta problem let's get on top of it
We ain't gotta split we can conquer it
But we gotta quit over reacting
Imagine just last night we're romancing
First passion now we be clashing
I know what's happening you throw in a tantrum
As a man I'm making the first move
You know I never do nothing to blatantly hurt you
We got a situation to work through
But patients a virtue and baby it take two so

I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out
I'm not letting go
Yeah girl that's for sure
Won't catch me walking out
So ok let's work it out

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:11 PM

Baby is at my mother's place with my maid
Both my kids contracted HFMD
so i have to bring baby over to my mother's place
to keep him away from the disease

Had a nice chat with my mother in law today
Learned a lot of things from her
How to keep your marriage going..
How to keep your family together
and stuff like that
Basically, how to live happier

John added me in friendster today
Was surprised
Wonder how he found me
And we had a chat in MSN

Tired~
Work's OK
But with 2 kids that needs more care and attention
It's really very tiring

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:03 PM

Thursday, June 05, 2008

I can only blog weekly due to my hectic schedule

Latest Updates:
Dariz was diagnosed with HFMD 2 days back.
He's better now.
At least he won't wake up in the middle of the night
moaning in pain..
Able to play now, can eat more compare to last 2 days
I would have to practically fight with him
when feeding him milk
No choice~
Dr gave us only 24hrs..
If he still dun feed well, he would have to go on drip..
So i have to force him to at least eat something..
To keep him from dehydrating...

And now, i found spots on Travis' hands
and ulcer in his mouth..
So, confirm plus guarantee chop
It's HFMD!!!!!!

Haiz~ ~ 我可怜的宝贝！！！

Work is great
My predecessor is a nice lady..
But she has very high demand
She wants almost perfect in everything..
Thats pretty hard on me..
Cos I'm a lazy bum~
=P

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:40 PM

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Finally Rajiv is back~
Sms me the other day
telling me that he's fine and stuff like that
He has been missing for months
I tot he had vanished into thin air!!!
was about to stop looking for him when he showed himself up
We're good frenx, really good frenx~
But sometimes, i just cant stand his 'cheekiness'
He's too damn cheeky~

Tired~
Really tired~
I'm sick and tired of everything
Feeling so depressed
Money is the root of all evil
But no choice
everyone needs money to get by
And i just earn lesser than i need~

Starting work tml
gotta sleep early tonight
Aunt Teresa is flying back to Thailand soon
Noodee & Master Champ & B-boy
is not coming over to Singapore
Noodee will be flying back to New York though
she's having her summer vacation now
Haiz~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:13 PM