//...winter...\\

Thursday, October 30, 2008

I didn't know asking for my hubby's companionship is wrong...
At least to him...

Do you rather I go out to look for other ppl to accompany me??
It's a choice I made to have no friends...
It's not a situation I'm being forced into....

I choose family over frenx,
but I dun understand why u cant choose the same???

I'm a joke to you all along....
You never give a damn about my feeling...
It never come across to you how would I feel for those things you've said..

Or maybe you think that with 3 kids now,
I'm at a dead end where I cant do anything???

If that's what u think,
den it's time u change your mindset...

I choose my own route....
Ppl's thinking will change over time..
I am but a normal human...
I will change too.....
I doesn't change in 6 years
doesn't mean that I wouldn't change in another 6 years time...

Everytime u wanna do or say something to anyone
Pls think of how others will feel first...

If it's impossible for us to go back to how we were in the past
I hope we can at least treat each other with respect...

Games, friends, etc > Family ????

I hope you wouldn't regret your decision in the future..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:19 AM

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I was tested negative..
It was a big load of my mind...
Phew~

So, I will be arranging for a date for the insertion.
But before that I have one more test to do..

Will be going with Aunt Sam.

I cant think of having another again at this time...

~~Shudders~~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:35 AM

Monday, October 27, 2008

I'm feeling quite depress...
I have symptoms of expecting
I know it's impossible for me to take care of another one
But I wouldn't bear to take it away either..
I havent did any test yet...
But the mere thought of it sent a shiver down my spine..
Will be going for a test tml...
Or maybe wait for a few more days first and see if Code Red might report...

Till then.................

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:42 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Melamine is everywhere...
In food, milk, biscuit, our bowls and spoon, and now... Eggs!!!

How to eat food like this??
Haiz~

Bought 2 tins/ea of 1.8kg & 900g of Gain IQ Kids from a mother in forum
Plus 10 sachets as well, All for only $140/=
Have checked the tin and it states there imported by Abbott Singapore..
So I think there's nothing much to worry about..

Did nothing much these few weeks
Have been following the same routine.
But I'll be getting very busy for the next 2 weeks or so.
2 Wedding dinners to attend...
My pocket's gonna have big big hole in them..

Just came back from my mama's house.
Hubby went out with his friends..
Will be going over to look for them after the kids turn in..

Read in the papers a 11year old girl
died due to fever, after 2 jabs...
Wonder what jab did the Dr gave her that cause her to lose her life..
I find the the report on the newspaper contradicting..
Those who have read the report might have the same feeling as me..

Life is so fragile and nothing is absolute
We are enjoying peace now in Singapore
But is this definite??
What if one day some country as ambitious as Japan and Germany
decided that they wanna be the only ruler in the world and starts another World War??
I really dunno how will life be by then...
I talk to hubby about this...
He said that this kind of thing will not happened again
At least at this moment...
I dunno why am I having this kind of thoughts..
Maybe because of the book: Rape of Nanking
I dunno those who have read this book will have the same feeling as me or not..
And I dunno why I have this kind of feeling...
But nevertheless, I'm having it....
And I think I'm getting a little depressed...
I mean...
Which human being with that little feeling wont feel
anything after reading that book!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:16 PM

Monday, October 20, 2008

Xenia is on Leave till Wednesday
Molly is on half day leave
Lih Chin is on MC

I also want to go home!!!

Am thinking of taking Childcare Leave next week.
Feeling so tired...
It's also good to take leave once in a while...
Stay at home whole day, no need to spend any money

Got this weby from a mother from forum
http://cupcake-fantasies-catwalk.blogspot.com/2008_09_01_archive.html#8350144090193681757

Take a look, the cupcakes are so tempting...
Look so cute!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:25 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Brought Travis and rhys down to the salon for their haircuts..
Travis' hair is going to be longer than mine in no time if I still dun bring him for his haircut
As for Baby Rhys, he has uneven hair growth which make him look so ugly..

Brought the kids to Orchard yesterday with my mother in law..
We went OG before going to New York @ Centrepoint for our dinner..

The kids really enjoy themselves..

We head straight home after that..
And board a cab which driver chose his customers..
No choice we gotta alight and board another..
Wonder why some cab drivers are like that..
He told me there's too many ppl and he cant take
If not he'll get a summon...
I mean 3 adults and 2 kids with a baby = too much???
Who are u trying to kid man!

I was thinking of lodging a complain against him,
but come to think of it:
I will not feel good if he lost his job because of a trivial matter...
I chose to let the matter rest...
Anyway, I got home safe and sound..
No trouble arise from this situation...
So I just forget the whole matter..

Exam coming and I still have not do any revision..
Haiz~
I really dunno how to pass my exam (like that)

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:11 PM

Friday, October 17, 2008

No one in the office now..
So take the opportunity to blog..

Nothing to blog actually,
but i just want to write something so my blog does seems up to date..
Kekex~

Have been trying to improve in my work..
What I mean is my memory..
Cos memory plays a big part in it..
I always forgot things that I shouldn't have
And I should say that Molly have been exceptionally tolerant..

Carelessness too..
I always tend to submit my work without checking..
It's not I dun want to check,
but that I always forgot to check...

Haiz~

How can I assume greater responsibilities if i keep in going like this???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:09 PM

Thursday, October 16, 2008

L & I have come to an agreement that N is one of the most good looking guy in the office..
He's not exactly handsome but he have the kind of look that u won't find it bored after some time..
Personally, I find G & C not bad looking too..

Recently L & I have been on this topic during lunch..
Haha~

Nope
I'm not interested in any of them..
*keeping my finger crossed*

Oppx~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:44 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Wasn't in the best of mood lately..
No mood to blog, no mood to do anything..

Sometimes I wonder what is the meaning to live..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:31 PM

Monday, October 13, 2008

Dariz is now lying on the floor, eyes closing soon...
No matter how I ask him to go into the room to sleep,
he wouldn't budge..
Maybe because Daddy & Mummy are both @ the living room now..
可连的宝贝！！！

My exam is coming soon
But I haven't even touch on any subjects for revision yet...
Arghhhhhhh!!!!!
Sure flunk!!!
............................

Registering for CAT next year..
Have missed the August Intake,
guess the next Intake would most
probably be on either Nov or nxt yr..
Hopefully nothings goes wrong and I can
complete the course in less than 2 yrs..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:48 PM

Friday, October 10, 2008

Lunch time's over~
Loads and loads of work waiting to be finished...

Arghh!!!!!!!

Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:15 PM

I'm still trying to be a good wife and good mother..
Looking at how other ppl's marriage blossom
make me realize that it's not easy to maintain one..

I have a very bad temper..
This I have to admit...
But my love for my family is genuine..
This no one can deny..

I work hard for my kids and myself..
I'm a spendthrift..
I'm a supporter of retail-therapy..
I am obsessed with shoes...
Heels, crocodile shoes, many others..

But no doubt, I'm a fan of Thomas the Train,
Mickey Mouse & Winnie the Pooh as well...
I'll buy (these characters) toys for my kids
because they simply just love them to bits..

I dunno if my kids feel my love..
But i believe that as long as I love them with my heart
they'll be able to feel it...

I make it a point to hug and cuddle them every day..
I make it a point to talk to them everyday..
Especially to Travis, my Eldest Son..
He's already such a big boy!!!
He is a very sensitive boy...
So I've gotta be sensitive to his needs too...

Things between me and Joey is getting better in some sense
We are not as lovey dovey like how we were in the past
But at least I'm learning how to be more sensitive to his needs
and to respect him in all aspect...

I have to admit that I did took him for granted in the past to a certain extend..
But all these while, he's the only man in my heart..

I've hurt you...
But that's because I love you...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:48 PM

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

What i said the other night was, no doubt, over the line..
But what I said was all from the bottom of my heart.
I'm sorry to have hurt you with those words..

Yes, I do love you...
but whenever I tot of how you have treated me over the years
I can't help but filled with hatred...
Do you know the impacts of your doing have on me??

I know you have been trying to be a better 'person'
But what done cannot be undone...
I've already felt the impact, there's no way to undo it..

You may feel hurt now...
But the hurt I felt have been there for as long as I live...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:11 PM

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Dun understand why, whenever I log in to blogger to blog something
I will turn out staring at the screen for a long long time
thinking back what was it that I want to write...

Alamak~
I'm really old liao!!!!!!

Went exercising last night...
Thought of jogging around the neighbourhood
but changed my mind and walk up & down the stairs instead

Walked from 6th storey to 15th storey.
9 storeys for 5 times...
My legs became wobbly at the 4th lapse

My legs were still trambling about an hour later when I was bathing..
I had no choice but to sit on the floor and bath...
Arghh!!!!!

But it's good to start with...
My legs are a little cramp today..
So I might just cut down to 3 lapse first and graudally increase..
Hopefully, I'll be able to see some results soon....

Sometimes I can't help but find myself stupid..
I know you're gonna laugh at me for this..

I bought a set of fake eyelash
and thought of putting it on for fun yesterday
I sit infront of the mirror for nearly 15 mins but i can't even get it stick properly..
You seen someone as stupid as me???
Can't even do this kind of simple thing properly...
Haiz~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:10 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Went for shopping just now..
Bought some 内在美, toys for the kids & went to the Dr..

Saw Ferlyn's Bong just now..
He was at his friend's HP counter..
Called out to him, wanted to ask him where is Joe
cos Joe told me that he was going over to their counter..
But he act blur, doesn't wanna ans me..
Dun ask me why.. Cos I also dunno why...
Some ppl just thought that they're very much 'sought after'
and act as if they're superior than others
where the fact is they're actually nothing.. Nothing at all...

You can say that I dislike him..
Or u can say that I am angry with him..
Yes, I dun deny...
Who wouldn't be angry when being maligned???

He thought I asked Ferlyn to club the other time
when it's Ferlyn who was the one who asked me out
He didn't even bother to get the facts right
before he show ppl his 35cents face

For goodness sake!!!!

Pls lahx~
Can I 'toh tiap' u 5cents to make your face more 'see-able'????

I dun mind if you show me face when I did something wrong
But use your thick brain and think...
Why should I see your face when you are the one who can't take your wife at hand???

You fail yourself right???
Not me who fail u or cause you to fall out with ur wife, right???

What can I say when I come across this kind of ppl???
All I can say is some ppl are just plain ignorant...

You gotta understand that $$$ makes the world go round...
Not your so call 'xxx' brothers...
They dun even scare a 3 yr old kid...
Not even to mention me...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:28 AM