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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I thought 'speech' therapy will be a good way for me to destress.
I was wrong...

Then I thought listening to songs would help...
Not much help either..

Then I resort to retail therapy....
It proves to be a total failure...

With all else fail, 'Food' therapy is next on the list...
Worse!!

My life is a disaster!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:50 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Resolutions of 2010
1. Lose another 5kg by end of July.
2. Coach Dariz in his Studies at least 4 times a week.
3. Check Travis schoolwork everyday
4. Flash card for Rhys every day, at least 5 mins.
5. Read at least 1 book per week, preferable something beneficial to personal & spiritual well-being.
6. Read the mantras once a day (either morning or night)

Updated: 25 April 2010

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 8:43 PM

Friday, April 23, 2010

I think it has become a habit to have a post every other day.
Is that good??
Well, Who cares?!

I am binging on food again!
Oh god! Help me!!

No choice... I'm planning something big, thus the need to binge on food to supply my body with the required energy.. Haha!
*Arhh... Crap!!*

Busy day!
I like it!!
It makes me feel so alive..
Compare to days when I can slack from the time I stepped into ofiice till the time I'm out,
busy days are much more welcome!

I'm trying to make it a habit to read every morning on my journey to work.
I used to have this habit, but god knows when I kicked it~
I was tidying up my shelves the other day and realised that I have lots of books on buddhism.
Guess I should make good use of the time travelling to read these books.
These books are good for personal & spiritual well being.
No harm reading excessively..
So ya, I should start next Monday!!!

Updated my status last evening on FB: 戒烟，戒酒，戒情人。。。
Aunt Theresa commented: 戒烟,戒酒,我明白. 戒情人?? 你真行!!!
Haha, her comment tickles me..
I just post it for fun cos it sort of rhymes without thinking of how others would think..
I think her comment reflect the thinking of some FBers.
And ya, that embarrass me~ =P

Ok~
Gotta stop here and go for my lunch....
There are still lots of things waiting for me to do!
No more skiving =(

See ya, peeps!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:24 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2010

woke up on the wrong side of the bed....
Not only today, but for the past few days as well...
I don't know what's wrong with me...
Feeling so grumpy and grouchy all the time...
Is it because of the hot & humid weather?
My persistant cough and flu?
Or PMS???

Checked through the net for the room rates of different hospital.
Focusing on 2 eventually - TMC & Gleneagles
The difference between the rates for Single room in these 2 hospitals is less than $50.
That makes it harder to decide which hospital to go for.

Don't get me wrong.
I am NOT pregnant.
NOT YET!!
Am just collecting some relevant info since hubby and I are planning to have a baby girl in the near future.

Talking about baby girl.
Was browsing through the net about choosing the gender of baby using this Almaniac Calander.
I tell you, it's damn accurate!
Spooky!!!
I tried calculating for my previous 3 births and it all matched!!
It's that amazing!!!!!!

Alright, I sound bogus, I know..
But that is the FACT!!!

Sis called this morning at 8.59am..
that is so unlike her to call me in the morning.
Our first conversation usually takes place after 10m on a weekday.
I guess I should thank Jay Chou for this.
Cos it's due to his concert tickets that my sis called me.

That woman was already at sistic outlet queueing for the tix when she called me.
She sent me relevant details and asked me to get her the tix online.
Tough luck!
The site was already down when I try at 9am, and continue that way for the next few hour.
I bet it will continue this way till the day ends.

黄小虎 - 没那么简单
Nice song, meaningful...
Alvin Xie intro this song to me when I told him hub wants to divorce me.
Sat by the river, I listened to this song..
The meaning of every word...
It set me thinking everytime I listen to this song..
Ultimately bringing me to realisation, resulting in the reconcilation between me and hub.

I should thank Alvin for it ;)

Slacky Thursday...
I wanna go home!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:15 PM

Dear said last night's sky looked hazy.
I lay in the bed at 11.30pm, trying to sleep.
Woke up at 12.30am by the spasm the cough caused.
For a second, I tot I'm gonna cough out blood anytime soon..
Yes, the cough's that bad!
I had a cup of ice lemon barley, some bbq stingray and sotong for dinner last night.
Wonder if any of these were the cause of it...
I gotta make a trip down to the Dr this evening after my facial session.

The cough is getting worse.
I feel like I'm breathing my last most of the time.
And if that doesn't kill me, that definitely leaves me with a brain damage!

Planning to bring the kids to AMK West garden's Macdonald this Saturday for breakfast.
The environment there is good. Very healthy.. I like it. ;-)

I've been slacking on job recently due to my deteriorating health.
Gotta buck up, there's still a thousand and one thing not done yet!!
I need to start packing my room too.
It's so messy!!!

Gotta do some shopping these few days.
Need to get 2 mattresses, some pillows and bolsters.
Those at home are reaching their expiry date, gotta chuck them off soon.

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:48 AM

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Sick again~
Or should I say haven't really recover from my illness and the condition is deteriorating again??
Whatever it is, I am not feeling good~

Wonder what's the cause of it.
Is it because of the weather?
Or because I've been smoking more since the start of the year?
Or the result of both?

Whatever~

Hubby has changed from night shift to afternoon shift.
Something to rejoice about, i guess~

Maid's on leave today.
So gotta look after the kids, can't spend as much time on my own..
I bathed and feed the kids lunch today.
After so long, I suddenly feel like a real mother.
I mean, it has been years since I last did all these for my kids.
After my maid arrived, I only coach them in their studies..
Nothing other than that~
I appreciate this little chance to do something for them..
It makes me feel good~

Q2 - It's getting busier at work...
More courses coming up..
More trainers and participants flying around.
More coordinating work to do...
Arghhh!!!

Next module starts on 3 May 2010.
Another 2 weeks to go and I'll be seeing my mates again.. =)
Ya, I miss them so much~

Feeling rather emo recently..
I dunno why either..
Maybe it's due to the recent events that set me thinking of the kind of life I want in future,
about the decisions I made in the past, and about how my life would be now if I took another course previously.
You know this kind of thoughts, would somehow or rather, manipulate your emotions..
Making u feel happy or sad in a fraction of second..
So ya.. I know I shouldn't be entertaining such thoughts..
But................

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:29 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Even when I'm feeling unwell, I still get no comfort from you.
Whenever I need help, you will always be the last one there for me.
I'm like a maid to you.
Whatever you want me to do, you'll call for me..
But when there's nothing, You would not even bother me..

You have your ego, you are sensitive...
How about me??
Don't blame me for not giving you as much attention as I did in the past.
I'm afraid of rejection, I'm afriad of the consequences of force-seeking attention from you.
you have very supportive friends.
No matter who's at fault, they would always support you and point their fingers at me.
You have no fault leaving your whole family at home to enjoy with your friends.
But when I did the same, it's a unpardonable crime.

What is this??
Do you still love me??
For so many years, I only feel that we are making use of each other.
True love between us seems to be buried deep into wherever soon after our marriage.
For so many years, all you want is your freedom, never me or the kids.
Dun tell me that you do.
Cos if you really do, you would not be acting the way you are now.
You rather listen to some idiots 'teaching' and be the kind of jerk that treat
yuour family like shit rather than learning from some model daddy/husband.
It's your idiocracy that drove us to this point.
You said you've changed better, but to me you are worse than before.
Nothing anyone said go through your ears, only what those idiots said get into your brain.
You take pride in such ability, don't you feel ashame of yourself??

Really, don't blame people for treating you like this.
Ask yourself how have you been treating others.

Treat people the way you want to be treated.
I know you are a very nice person in front of your friends.
that's why u have lots of them around you.

How about your family??
How everyone is treating you now is a reflection of how you have been treating us.
Think about it!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 6:12 PM

Thursday, April 08, 2010

Late night revision with coursemates...
Birthday celebration with coursemates...
Outing with coursemates....
All these are considered a crime...

Gaming non-stop...
Sleeping non-stop...
Unwillingness to help out in family matters....
Unwilling to look for a part time job when family is in financial crisis...
All these are considered nothings-wrong...

What am I to you??

When I want your attention, when I ask you to celebrate my bday with me, what kind of reaction did you give me?
Been married for so many years, how many birthdays have you celebrate with me before?
How many birthday presents have have i received from you before?
How many birthday greetings have u sent me before?
And now that my coursemates celebrated my birthday with me, you gave me a 'death sentence'??

Isn't this funny??

Why do all these things in FB?
Our own business, why do you have to rope in your friend??
Do you think that was necessary?
Do you think only you have friends but not I??
What have I done to deserve such humiliation from you and your friends??
Those kind of people you call them friends??
Haha! No wonder you never make your mark...

All they teach u is how to break up your marriage..
How to have fun and leave your family to die..
No?
Think about last time till now...
What have they taught you that was decent before??

You are the one who is pushing me further away from you..
Dun blame people for what happen between us...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:23 AM

Monday, April 05, 2010

Serve me right for not sleeping last night.
I need toothpick to keep my eyes open now!!!

Jacqueline replied yesterday.
Her comment: 'You are an excellent writer with an expert command of the language. This is definitely an 'A'.Very fluent and well-written on the whole.'

Haha! Receive such comment, shiok right???

But I feel stressed!
I'm lucky that I can find one question I can write on it expressively among those Jac gave us to practice.
What if my luck runs out during exam???

Hopefully not..
I suck in my language.
I havent been reading for a long time.
Such good habits, why do I 'kicked' it last time?!
And if my luck runs out during this time, I'm doomed!

Aries grandma passed away 2 days back.
Here, I offer her my condolences.
Hope she'll come to terms with her granny's death soon.

Hubby's off today and we'll be catching a movie after dinner later.
~Alice in The Wonderland~
I know the fever is out for this, but who cares~
I just wanna watch my Johnny Depp~ =D

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:42 PM

Sunday, April 04, 2010

我现在的心情好差。我好像哭，但是我哭不出来。。。
这首歌代表了我现在的心情。

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:31 PM