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Friday, February 27, 2009

Sad~

2 colleagues of mine will go in March...
Haiz~

So sad~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:03 PM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Yesh! Yesh!

I PASS MY EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:06 PM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

2 big swollen eyes..
Went GP yesterday but condition continue to worsen..
Just returned from TTSH.
And was given another 2 days MC.
And a big pack of medication...
All to apply on the eyes~

Good grief!
I have a test coming up on Thursday..
Hopefully I'll be fine on that day..

Labels: medical problems

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:51 PM

Friday, February 20, 2009

I had this dream last night...
After a huge quarrel with hubby
& a torturous night by my cry baby~

I was somewhere I couldn't quite make out at first..
I kept having this dreaded feeling..
Suddenly I realized that I was in a clinic...
I was waiting to see a gynae...
I was hoping that I wasn't preggie again..
Then I went into a room..
I had decided that if I was really preggie,
I would find ways to get rid of this baby..
I dun want another baby now!

The Dr did a scan on me...
And I was cfmed preggy..
But the scan was different from those conventional 2D scan.
I can see the baby clearly..
Not like those 4D scan either;
something clearer than that..
It was as if I was looking at a HDTV...
It's just too clear....

The baby opened his eyes and was looking at me
with sign of happiness flickering in his eyes...
And I remember telling myself
'How can I get rid of something so innocent & angel-like?'
It was then I decided, without any doubt, that I will bring the baby into this world...
'I just have to be more prudent in my spendings' I thought..

It was, then, the feeling of calm & peace envelope me~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:52 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Haha~ I have finally took care of the chalet!!!!

Yippie!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:43 PM

This is a very hard decision to make...

Due to some financial problems,
I have to let go of my maid...
One of the little luxury in life I have..
She was sad too when we (actually only I) talk to her about it~
But I'm now trying to look for a new employer for her..
We already have one, still in the midst of discussing..
But nothing is definite yet...

I expect life to be hell after she's gone..
I will have to take care of all housesold chores...
And my kids schoolwork...
I will have very little time for myself...
(And i mean very very little..)
And I reckon that I will look like a vampire in less than 2 weeks, no more~

Haiz~
Life is all about ups & downs~
Sacrifices are inevitable~

Dun worry, Be happy~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 8:37 AM

Monday, February 16, 2009

OMFG!!!!
Father at the age of 13???
Can u believe it??

He doesn't even know what does 'provide for the baby financially' means.
(-_-;;;)
His partner is only 15 yo.
I really wonder what the hack are they thinking about~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:09 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Baby Rhys is back at home after, like, 3 weeks??
Not because Travis recovered from chicken pox.
But because Dariz & Rhys both got chicken pox now..
No need for any quarantine anymore
They can stay tgt & play tgt now..
Great~
And I can save some time & money going to & fro my mother's place.

A trip down to our family Dr cfmed our fear yesterday..
While Travis was discharged from quarantine
& was given the green light to return to school,
Dariz was diagnosed with chicken pox.
Later in the evening, while I was at my mum's place.
We saw many little bubbles popping out within a few hours
after we first saw one small mosquito-bite-like mark on Rhys' face.
And the bubbles are identical to those on Travis' body..
So that, too, cfmed our worst fear.

But that little bugger is nothing like we expected.
He didnt cry & whine all day long.
It seems like he didn't even find the bubbles itchy.
He just play & play & go ard making every body's day as usual.
It doesn't seem like a bad thing he got chicken pox at this young age afterall.
(At least I can save on the preventive chicken pox jab)

We have to call-off the birthday party for Rhys.
He still have to abstain from certain food &
stay at home after certain timing even after he recover from the illness.

Have to call up all friends & relatives and inform them of this abrupt decision.
Guess will be quite disappointing to some...
I'm still thinking of other alternatives to make up for baby Rhys' birthday..
Maybe some buffet at home or something like that..

Come to think of it,
I actually promised the kids that I will bring them to the Zoo
after they have all recovered from chicken pox.
You know, to sort of make it up to them.
(It doesn't feel good to have to make them stay at home for the whole 2-3 weeks.)
After some calculation, the timing somehow coincides with Baby Rhys birthday.
The time they recover & Baby Rhys' birthday.
So I was thinking of celebrating it by having an outing to the Zoo....
Am still thinking of the possibilities...
Cost & strength involve...
And of course, I will have to seek approval from my 'CEO'.

Hubby drove me to my mum's place to fetch baby Rhys home today.
It's the first time I sat in a car he drove.
His driving skill????
Ermmm....
Super jerky lorx~
60 marks bahx~
Nt bad liao wor~
Cos he was driving a 20years old lorry with no power steering & faulty brake..
'Beh Sai Hiam' Lahx~

CAT exam on 26 Feb 2009, 1pm-3pm.
I'm super nervous...
What if I flunk my exam??

I am very serious this time.
I study almost everyday...
In bus, during lunch hour, after dinner..
Hoping that hard work could make up for my lack of intelligence,
and I am able to pass this exam...
Flying colours or not..
I just hope I can scrap it through...
Haiz~

Will be having mock exam tml...
Guess will then really know where my weaknesses are then..
Wish me luck for my upcoming exam...
=)

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 8:52 PM

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Met up with Mel & Amanda last night for supper.
Dear Dear test-drive Mel's car after that...
That was the first time he drive a car after he got his license..

Me & Sis went to visit our paternal grandma,
someone we have little contact over the years..
Mum & pa was divorced when we were little,
so we have literally no contact with them after the divorce.
It was only during the process of applying special permit
for my ROM that we came in contact with my pa.
Sis missed grandma, so she suggest that we go over and
visit them whenever we can.
She doesn't want any regrets later in life,
& neither do I.
So I agreed to visit them too...
Though I have totally no recollection of hw do they look like..
Or in what way they play a part in my first few years..

Grandma told me something today which shock me..
Even till now..
She said that after my parent's divorce,
my dad's new wife once suggest that my grandma
take me back from my mum to stay with them since
she is a Malaysian and will be staying in her own country
most of the time..
I only remember that she's big..
My sis remember that she's mean..
She doesn't give me good impression.
I'm glad my grandma didnt agree to it
cos I think my life will be worse off staying without my mum..
Contradicting, I know~
From what I always say about my mum,
I give ppl the impression that I blame her for most
things that happen to me..
But then again, comparing one woman who is my mum with another
who will be my 'new mum'
I think life will definitely be better with my biological mum...

But what pass is pass...
I dun wanna know and think so much anymore..
Life is already hard as it is..
And life is never about making merries all day long (I know)
I just want peaceful life....
Not stories that no ppl can change to make my life worse...

Given the situation I'm in now,
I would rather spend more time reflecting on myself.
A bad mum, a bad wife, a bad daughter...
How & what can i do to improve myself...
One thing I have to learn like a baby, is to
control my temper..
And that is to not flare up easily..
It's nt easy to keep yourself under control under
some stressful situation...

吃得苦中苦，方为人上人

This is definitely what I'm working forward to...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:56 AM

Sunday, February 01, 2009

My granduncle, my grandma's youngest brother,
was admitted to TTSH yesterday..
He couldn't pee for the last few days so Dr Woon
advice him to go TTSH for some thorough checkup.
After some checks done on him,
they say there's a high chance he have to undergo dialysis.

Mum have rushed down to visit him once she woke up..
This granduncle of mine used to dote on us alot when we're young.
He still does now..
I feel sad this kind of thing have to happen to him..
He's a honest & upright man..
Never cheat on anyone for all his life..
Such a nice man..
Why would such thing happen to him???

We will be praying for him..
Hope things will turn out well for him..
He's now doing a scan..
Dr will then determine if dialysis is necessary for him..

Why so many things happen recently???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:01 PM