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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

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Some people have better life than others, others have worse.
Some people just need a little hard work to see result,
some others might not be so lucky.

Life has not been fair to me.
But who has life been fair to?
If there's fairness in this world,
the children in Africa will not be starving
while we have all the nice food here in Singapore.

I have no good family background.
Not alot of friends around me to show their support when I need some.
From the look of my tag board, I suspect no one even bother about my blog.
Most of the time, my hubby is not ard me when I need him the most.

After all these years, I've learnt a valuable lesson:
成功要靠自己。

Don't blame people for doing this and that to you.
They're just doing their part in the making of someone extraordinary.

I used to think that good = being pretty, nice clothes, nice shoes, nice accessories, alot of friends, clubbing, etc.
But now I understand that good = clear conscience.
I might look like ghost now.
I might not have the ability to club, doll myself up or do things that people think it's hip.
但是数十年后，当我满头白发，牙齿都掉光，坐在家里的遥遥椅回想过去事时，我能够摸着良心的说：
我已经尽力了。我没对不起谁。

I might need to have a few years of 'hard life' looking after the kids,
studying, taking care of the family, hoping to get whatever
minimal support I can from my hubby in the process,
get frustrated over things that my kids do/don't do.........
But when they grow up, and I am old, at least I know in my heart
that I have already given them whatever I can.

To be able to live with a clear conscience in your later life
is the best thing that can happen to anyone.

Labels: Life

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:33 PM

Sunday, September 27, 2009

We work to live, not live to work.

I heard this during commercial break just now.
I agree with this saying, but how many ppl can actually do that?

Tried doing mobile blogging just now.
But just registering the mobile device gave me big headache.
Gave up in the end.
But lucky me, realized that I can just use 'edit HTML' tab to blog
as there seems to be some problems imputing text using the 'compose' tab when usin iPhone.

I'm still coughing very badly.
But I have to go back to work tml.
Still contemplating if i should go to class tml.

I wanna go taiwan next year.
Air ticket is less than $400, 2 ways, taxes included, for the date I want.

But I don't think I can go on that date.
I need at least $1k for a 7 days trip
which I think it's quite impossible to save in such short time.

2009 will be ending soon.
Hopefully next year will be better...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 7:55 PM

Saturday, September 26, 2009

我不是一个爱过就算的人

点不燃你心中那盏灯
就在大风的夜我等了又等
悬空的心总在星光中翻滚
坠落一杯满满情真
忘不了梦里轻轻一吻
就在热闹的街我向前狂奔
期盼的眼终於溢出了泪痕
装满一碗浓浓情深
我不是一个爱过就算的人
爱过的每一刹那都是我永恒
哪怕风愈吹愈冷哪怕爱情有伤痕
你还是我最思念的人
我不是一个爱过就算的人
只希望有个诚恳无悔的过程
哪怕你永远不能就算我孤注一生
也不介意在你眼眸里自焚
忘不了梦里轻轻一吻
就在热闹的街我向前狂奔
期盼的眼终於溢出了泪痕
装满一碗浓浓情深

我不是一个爱过就算的人

爱过的每一刹那都是我永恒

哪怕风愈吹愈冷哪怕爱情有伤痕

你还是我最思念的人

我不是一个爱过就算的人

只希望有个诚恳无悔的过程

哪怕你永远不能就算我孤注一生

也不介意在你眼眸里自焚

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:26 PM

I dreamt of him last night.
People used to say '日有所思，夜有所梦‘
But I haven't been thinking about him for quite some times already.
Or have I?

People always say you wouldn't marry the one you love most.
But the right one that comes at the right time.
I always truly believe in this.

I often wonder what will life be if I marry him instead of Joe?
But then again, he is not someone who wants to be tied down.
So, is there a chance for us to get married?
No way!

I'm not saying that Joe is not good or whatever, that's why I am thinking of someone else.
But you know, the memories you share with someone...
That's something that no words can describe.
Especially when it's 'good' memory.

We're still friends..
I'm glad we're still...
Not all couples have to be enemies after break up~　

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:10 PM

Friday, September 25, 2009

I almost laugh my f**king ass off reading this article:

Truly Malaysian? Tourism Minister wants to stake claim on popular dishes

What is that woman doing?

I was curious of her so I went to 'wiki' her.

In my opinion, she is someone with no moral.
I dun wish to further express my opinion on her,
let Wikipedia do the talking:

Ng Yen Yen

She has just assume office in the Ministry of Tourism.
新官上任三把火。
No wonder she's doing so much 小动作。

I will just sit back and see what can you do to claim ownership over those foods.

And will contribute some laughs where it is appropriate. =P

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:58 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Tuesday, but I'm suffering from Monday bluez.....
Cos yesterday was a PH,
it's the first working day of the week, therefore the bluez...

Yes, I'm still thinking of what is my correct choice.
Talked to hubby about Travis' spelling test last night.
Hubby said I was too fierce.
I explained to him, and he understood.
But what will be done????
I think nothing.
Cos hubby is so used to have everything taken care of by others.

Who can choose what you really want to be in life?
Usually we can only be what we can be rather than what we wanna be.
It's sad, but true.
That's how life is~

Do I really have the power to change life?
My crystal ball said nothing so far~

Labels: Life, uncertainties

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:11 PM

Monday, September 21, 2009

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I always agree that we should work hard & smart when young.
So I try to put in my best in everything.
I also understand what it means by 'you reap what you sow'.
So I try my best to sow what I want to reap in the future.

I want to climb the corporate ladder.
I want to have a high paying job so I won't have to think thrice when buying something.
And of course, to be able to cater to my kids material needs.

I'm young, so I have to work hard.

But I think I am spending too much time on my studies & my career
that I am neglecting my kids.
I haven't taught them anything for the past 2 weeks.
I did not revise their spelling words with them for the past weeks either.
With hubby working now, my MIL is the only person who can
help me coach them in their studies.
But my kids do best in bullying their granny.
So you can imagine the nagging I got every time I return home from class??

What is more important actually?
My career or my family?

I have my dream, my own ambitions.
But should i continue to pursue that or should I give up
and give my all for my kids.

What should I do?

I have discussed with hubby before to find a part time job
so I can spend most of my time on the kids.
But what about my studies???
If I am going to have that kind of job,
I don't think I need to spend the kind of money on a professional cert.
Or should I?

Maybe I'll take things slow and i/o taking 2 papers at a time,
I'll just take 1 paper at a time.
But I will have to wait for another 2 yrs to have my cert i/o 1 yr.

I'm like standing at the start of the road.
The road splits into several path.
Each is a path of no return.
I will have to choose carefully lest I chose the wrong path.
Which should I choose?

Is monetary wealth really that important??
Or is spiritual wealth more important?

Which should I choose?
Which is worth my while to pursue???

What should I do??
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Labels: Life, uncertainties

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:25 PM

Saturday, September 19, 2009

What is life actually???
This is one of the questions most people got no answer.
If you googgle it, the answer you will most probably get is:

Life (cf. biota) is a characteristic that distinguishes objects that have self-sustaining biological processes ("alive," "living"), from those which do not —either because such functions have ceased (death), or else because they lack such functions and are classified as "inanimate.

But that is a very technical answer of life.
What I'm asking is of the spiritual form.
What or how we should do in our whole lifetime to avoid having any regrets
when on our deathbed?

Some measurable success in your career
High education
group of filial children
Do as much good as possible to benefit all people
Help as many people/animals as you can
Play as hard as you can so this life won't be wasted

And what's more?

I believe if you ask the people around you, each one will give you a different answer.
But the most probable answer you might get is 'I don't know'.

That's what I got when I spoke with the closest people in my life.

We're like an Olympic athletes training for the big event.
When is the big event? The day you die.
How long do we have to train? The whole lifetime.
Make sure you train well!

Sis told me that.
This was quoted from a Tibetan Lama, according to her.

We're all born to suffer because of our bad karma.
If you have no heavy sins, you would not be born here
but in other (better) realms enjoying the fruits of your good karma.

Mum said this to me.
The good and bad karma here are referring to
those you have accumulated in your past lives.
I believe what she said.
Some things don't just happen like this.
There must be some higher power up there controlling things.
And I believe it is the Power of Karma.

Some other answers I got is like:

Just do whatever you want/you like, follow your heart. You just live once. Don't do anything that will make you regret.

But that sounds like rashness to me.
Don't they know that regrets are mostly born out of rashness?

My thoughts:

Career and family, which should come first?
If i spent most of my time in my career,
would I regret next time that I didn't spend enough time with my kids?

If the situation reverse, would I regret too?

No career = No money.
Which in turn also means that I wouldn't be able to give my kids what they want.

But if I put my career first, it would means lesser time spent with my kids
which may cause my kids to be problematic teenagers next time.

What is the correct choice?

Labels: Life, uncertainties

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:25 PM

Thursday, September 17, 2009

It sucks to be sick!
I am back to office today after 3 days of rest at home.
I have finished all the medicine but I am still coughing my lungs out!
'Must be the haze!' - everyone told me.
I know that too but what's the point of blaming the haze??
We should blame the indonesians instead!

Hubby is working part-time in Vivo now.
I brought the kids to Vivo the other day with my father to 'visit' him,
and for the first time, he genuinly seems happy about it.

It's been so long since I last update on my 'love life'...
Haha~
Nothing much to update actually....
The following equation should be applied in my marriage:
No news = Good news

Friday tomorrow, but I dun feel like working!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:22 PM

Friday, September 04, 2009

Everyone left.
I am all alone in the office.
Will have to finish my stuff before I can go.

Me wanna bing the kids to Marina Barrage this Sunday.
But looking at the weather these few days,
I'm afraid the plan might have to be put on hold first.

Aries suggest bringing the kids to WWW this month end.
She say there's a promotion.
Tickets are only going at $6.50 per pax.
So, why not?

Hubby is still waiting for Sands to start training.
He dare not take up other jobs for fear that he might not be able
to commit the minimum period required, in most cases, it's 3 months.

So I have to act like some kind of super woman.
Taking up the responsibility of a sole bread winner.
Not exactly 'sole'bread winner'.
I'm staying with my in laws and my FIL is working.
they do render help some times.

Travis graduation concert is on 28 November.
One week after his Orientation day.
I look forward to both~

Life has make me stronger, strong beyond my imagination.
Sometimes I wonder if I am a 'cockroach' in my previous life.
I think i resemble cockroach in quite a few ways...
Hahahaha.....

Labels: Life, uncertainties

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:48 PM