//...winter...\\

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

What's the point of treating someone good when that fellow dun even know how to appreciate?
What's the point of treating someone good when that fellow doesn't even bother to reciprocate?
What's the point of treating someone good when that fellow treat you just like a fool?

My ans: No Point!

Expect nothing from me.
I won't give anymore..
I have given too much..
'Love' is what a fool needs..
I dun wanna be a fool anymore..
I dun need ur love anymore...

Be happy for me as I have let it go...

Labels: Wedding Anniversary

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:28 AM

Sunday, March 29, 2009

New blogskin....

I know, it'a not very nice...
It's like so-so only~

I wan my own custom made blogskin...
Anyone can help me with it?

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 6:30 PM

Me & hubby were involved in a minor accident this afternoon,
when we're on the way to my aunt's house to fetch my relatives.
Lucky for us, we're not hurt in anyway.
The only damage is our side mirror...

We drove them to the temple first to pray to my grandpa
before heading to Sin Ming Dr to look for a mechanics.
Halfway through, it rained.
And made it all the harder for us to see outside the car.

In the end, we can't find any.
So we head back to the temple.
Pray to my grandpa & my great-grandmother.
And left that place just the rain gets heavier.
We were drenched when we reach home...

What a day~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:30 PM

I usually wakes up after 11am during weekends.
But by 9.30am yesterday, I was already in the wet market
with my MIL.
We went to buy fish and pork, and some organic vegetables
for my little baby Rhys.
Price for Cod fish seems to have gone up again...
If I didn't go the market with my MIL yesterday,
I would never know how much a meal of home cook food cost today.

We returned home around 10.30am,
and start cleaning the fish & meat.
After breakfast, I got a little of 'myself' time
as my precious' are playing with my PC.
And guess what?
I dozed off while reading a book!!!
Luckily I was on my bed.....
With my blankey & my posy around me...
Apart from the weather, everything is just right for a nap~

I woke up at 3pm and start taking out those fish/meats from the freezer.
Start cooking at 3.30pm and finishes at around 6.30pm..

The dishes I've prepared:

1)茄汁鱼块
2)腐乳卤鸡翅
3)Pork Chop with Onion & Tomato Sauce
4)Bamboo fungus in chicken soup
5)Stir fry eggs

I know these are all easy-to-cook food..
But it's not the case for me as I hardly cook a meal..
So it actually poses a challenge for me...

Have asked comments from the birthday boy after he tried my cooking
and he say that the food is good...
Luckily he likes what I've cooked,
if not that'll be a waste effort~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:12 PM

Friday, March 27, 2009

I have been trying to transfer some pics from my HP to my PC.
But it seems like something is very wrong with the USB cable..
I can't even establish a connection..

Been busy with work, study & my family.
Juggling between all 3,
I think I'm going crazy very soon...

On 1/2 day leave today..
Our financial year ending soon.
Any left over leaves will be forfeited after this month.
So my superior ask me to clear my leave..
I left with only 1/2 a day,
so might as well took it.

Baby Rhys have become naughtier day by day.
He's so out of control some times...
Not like when I was taking care of my other precious..
He seems more uncontrollable..

Have stumbled upon someone's blog.
Someone who I am not in very good term with.
She make realize something - I'm blessed.
I have my MIL.
Someone who will never hesitate to lend me a helping hand
everytime I'm face with difficulties.
But she have no one.
She only have herself to count on.
Compared to her, I am really blessed, right?

Hubby birthday is tml.
I want to have some celebration with him,
but, how can we celebrate when we're so cash-strapped?!?!

Haiz~
Ppl always say 贫穷夫妻百事哀。
Now I know exactly what they mean.

Hopefully our lives will only get better from now on..
Will def look for a more promising job after I got my cert.
Whole life working as an admin..
Cannot larh~
With the miserable amount of money I get every month,
my kids will starve to death sooner or later~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:35 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Woman in ancient times are a sad lot,
no matter where they are.
Be it China, Japan, Korea, or even the almighty Britain,
they're treated no better than dogs~

Am reading the Last Concubine..
Though it's quite boring and slow, but nice story line.
Worth the read.

Have drawn up a list on my next books and
the movies I wanna watch.
They're not new titles though,
so I will have to rent the movies from those DVD rental shop
and borrow the books from the library.

The list goes:

BOOKS

Witch Child - Celia Rees
Chinese Cinderella: The True Story of an Unwanted Daughter - Adeline Yen Ma
Falling leave: The Memoir of an Unwanted Chinese Daughter - Adeline Yen Ma
Interview with The Vampire - Anne Rice
Macbeth - William Shakespeare

MOVIES

The Haunting Airman
Vanity Fair
Panic Room
Into The Wild
Mystic River
Milk

Guess that'll be all...

My way of relaxing is to escape to the world of fiction.
Well, reality is harsh...
Fictitious world is almost bearable...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:22 PM

Monday, March 23, 2009

Artist: Natasha Bedingfield
Album: Pocketful of Sunshine
Title: Pocketful of Sunshine

[Interlude]
I got a pocket,got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love that knows that it's all mine
oh.oh,oh
Do what you want, but you never gonna break me,
sticks and stone are never gonna shake meoh,oh,oh

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)

[Interlude]
I got pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love that knows that it's all mine
oh,oh,oh
Wish that you could,
but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]

[Hook]
When the slaves that are go
Where nobody knows
and I call it home
When there's no more lies
and darkness is lightand nobody cries
there's only butterflies

[Chorus 2x]

[Chorus & Interlude]

The sun's on my side
Wave me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know i'll be alright

The sun's on my side
Wave me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know i'll be alright

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:14 PM

Artist: Craig David
Album: Unknown
Title: Insomnia

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind
)Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:56 PM

Life is all about work work & more work..
Everything I do, every decision I make,
I have my kids on the top of my priorities..
Though I might not be a good mother,
but I love my kids..
More than anything in this world..

I wonder how life would be when my kids
are old enough to fly off on their own.
I know life would not be as hard as now.
But I certainly would feel empty.

Everything I do now, I have a motivation.

But when they no longer need me,
what would be my motivation?

Labels: BlueZ, mood

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:48 PM

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Watch it wif hubby & Ghim last night.

Nice show.

I didn't know 'The Rock' can act.

Cos he doesn't act as good in his previous movies.

I thought he's only good at wrestling..

But seems like my memory is not doing any justice to his acting.
The 2 teenage lead in the show look beautiful..

Yes, both of them..

the storyline is good too..

Who would think that living things in other planets look exactly like human beings?

And there are also other planets like earth in a world we still can't conpletely understand.

Labels: Movies

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:25 PM

Visited Science Centre today wif the kids..
Though the tics are cheap, but there's nothing much there
to hold the attention of my 3 precious.
But there's alot there for older children to see & learn..
So I think I will have to wait for another few years before I'll visit again..

Hubby will be signing up for his course tml.
I dunno if he's doing the right thing taking this course or not..
But I will still support him nevertheless.

I'm getting more focus on my studies now.
I can't afford to fail any paper..
So I have to put in more effort and time
to make sure I will pass my exams~

Went to my mum's place after science centre today..
Have a chat wif my grandma n my aunt..
Sometimes I feel so out of place among the ppl I've known
since the days I was in my diapers.
It's like the kind of 'closeness' is not there anymore.
Everyone sometimes seems like stranger to me...
It's like I can't relate anything to them anymore..
And whatever happen to me doesn't affect them at all anymore....

I dunno how I should describe this feeling..
It seems beyond words.

Maybe it's my temper.
I seems to be constantly wearing a black face at my mum's place.
Not because of my family members,
but a maid~

I know you'll be laughing at me now.
Fancy getting angry with a maid.
But... wait till you see her..
You'll know why I feel the way I do.
I've never seen a more 'high class' maid then her...
Never..
In my life~

I really wish to be happy everyday,
But seems like I'm the more emo type.
I envy ppl who can 天塌下来当被盖。
I wish to be like that too,
but I think I will have to work really hard towards it.

Good!
Another goal..
Happiness will be my motivation towards this goal~
And I shall work hard for it.
For my HAPPINESS!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:42 PM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Hubby called and said he wanna watch this movie...
He was so excited!!!
He swear that it's a good watch...
And he says it's freaking scary...

Damn!
Should a scaredy cat like me watch with him???
Oh crap!

Title: The Haunting of Connecticut
Release Date: 27 March 2009
Directed by: Peter Cornwell

In the tradition of such real-life horror movies as ‘The Exorcist’ and ‘The Exorcism of Emily Rose’, THE HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT tells the astounding true story of one family’s supernatural ordeal. When Sara and Peter Campbell’s son Matt is diagnosed with cancer, they uproot their family to Connecticut for his treatment. As the family settles into their new home, Matt grows increasingly disturbed by paranormal activity that seems to inhabit and possess the house. At a loss to help her frightened family, his mother turns to an enigmatic priest who appears to rid the house of its ghosts— until the boy’s condition takes a sudden and unexplained turn for the worse and their lives are put in grave danger. - http://www.apple.com/trailers/lions_gate/thehauntinginconnecticut/

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:33 PM

I've been pondering..
What's life??
Good life???
What's the defination of 'good life'?

Ppl are always working forward to a life without worries..
Is that really possible???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:29 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Ok! Bad mummy here~
I didn't did as promised.
Didn't celebrate Baby Rhys' birthday...
But.. But.. But...
I brought him out for shopping that day..=)
Yes, though it's mummy shopping,
but Baby had a great time too~
So, counted, right???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:23 PM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

You know, after reading so many mummies blog on their baby's first bday celebration,
I suddenly feel very wrong for me to cancel Rhys' birthday party...
I think I will have a small little celebration this thursday.
But have to check with my MIL what the kids can and cannot eat..
I think I will feel so much better after that~ =)

Labels: 1st bday

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:05 PM

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Have been exceptionally even tempered recently.
I didn't even blow my top when hubby being ridiculous.. Well Done

But I shouted at my kids today...
Shouted at Dariz for ever being so demanding...
And scolded my youngest baby, Rhys, for being naughty..
And, yes, for the first time in his life, I hit him...

I hit him on his hand..
A few times..
Cos he beat me first, on my FACE, when I said he was naughty in a angry tone...
Den I hit him back and said 'Cannot beat ppl!'
in an even angrier tone...
Maybe he thought that if he show that he was even more fierce than me,
I would be scared and let him off, so he hit me again....
On my shoulder this time (I was carrying him, and we're facing each other).
The rest, I think you could even guess it without much effort..
I hit him, he hit me back...
And this go on for quite a while until I hit him quite hard and
said the same thing in an even louder voice and look at
him with an even more 'lethal' look...
He cried... And doesn't even dare to look for his auntie whom
he would always look for when he feels bullied.

I know many ppl would say-
'Crazy woman! The baby is barely a year old.. What would he know?' Crazy

But I would say:
This is the way I teach my children. I am the mother.. Toungue Out

We Chinese have a saying '三岁定终身'.
Which means our character and whatever that u were
being thought by the time you're 3, will be with you for life.
Dun tell me that things do change when the kids are older,
they'll know better when they're older..
I dun wanna wait till when they're older..
Cos old habits die hard.
I would rather try to change them when they're younger than they are older..
That's the philosophy I take when it comes to my kids...

Ok, enough on my 妈妈经..
Let's change to some lighter topics...

Went to Aloha Loyang today to do check-in on another mummy's behalf.
Her baby 1yo birthday today...
If you have read my previous post, you would have known that my
Baby Rhys should have his first birthday celebration today at Aloha...
Too bad, 人算不如天算，he contracted chicken pox
and have to cancel off the celebration....

Haiz~
I am so sad~ Crying 2

I went in to take a look at the surrounding..
And I really like the surrounding there...
They have a children playground and a swimming pool..
And hubby's favorite: an arcade.
I think I will find an excuse to hold a chalet at Aloha this year end... =P Making A Wish

Work life sux... Thumbs Down

The ppl there sux... Awww Shucks

And yes, to the max, you could say...
They would always say 'I'm very busy, I'm very busy'
Stay for OT and stuff like that,
but I always see them standing around and chit-chatting with the others..
Or they'll walk here and there...
And do nothing.....
But when you ask them to help, they'll go 'I'm very busy! I'm very busy!'
Crap right?!
These ppl = idiots
Sometimes, I really feel like killing them!! Club Me

Of course, there's nice ppl around also....
Like ABC & EFG...
And some others lorx.... Roll

*Yes, I'm being an idiot, too.
Which idiot would have names like ABC & EFG???
But I'm just trying to leave some space for imagination for my readers...
You can guess who are the evil wans and the good wans...
But there'll be no price for correct guess...
Hahaha!!!! Insane

Labels: birthday, Rants

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:47 PM

Friday, March 06, 2009

Class started this Wednesday.
Though it's only one session per week ,
but I am still tight of time..

Recently, I only have time to blog half, or less than half,
of what I wanna blog.

Continue from the previous post:

For the sake of not having to go through the torture of hunger,
ppl are capable of doing things beyond imagination...
I dun understand how could someone see other's lives as shit
and their own precious...
I mean, aren't we all equal???

Haiz~
*Wishingful thinking~

How could all be equal?????

If all could be equal,
some b*tches will be tasting the 'fruit' they sow now!

#It's funny that I suddenly change the topic....
I know there's no link at all...
But I have a shitty day at work.
And I just want some let-out!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:17 PM

Thursday, March 05, 2009

OMFG!!!
2 gruesome n heartwrenching emails in 24hrs time...

Email #1
BODY USE FOR DRUG TRAFFICKING
There is a woman from Texas, with her husband, was planning a weekend trip across the Mexican border for a shopping spree. At the last minute their baby sitter canceled, so they had to bring along their two-year-old son with them. They had been across the border for about an hour when the baby got free and ran around the corner. The mother went chasing but the boy had disappeared. The mother found a police officer that told her to go to the gate and wait. Not really understanding the instructions, she did as she was told. About 45 minutes later, a man approached the border carrying the boy. The mother ran to him, grateful that he had been found. When the man realized it was the boy's mother, he dropped the boy and ran. The police were waiting and got him. The boy was dead. In the (less than) 45 minutes he was missing, he was cut open, ALL of his insides removed and his body cavity stuffed with COCAINE. The man was going to carry him across the border as if he were asleep. A two-year-old boy, dead, discarded as if he were a piece of trash for somebody's cocaine

Email #2:
CANNIBALISM IN CHINA
Women were killed like pigs in some rural area of China where people are too poor to have any money for meat. Mostly during CNY period. How the butcher slaughter a pig, they use the same method to slaughter these pitiful woman. They even describe the last moment of these ladies as 'serene'. They didn't yell, scream or anything... But do you think they feel serene???

To be continued...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:48 AM

Monday, March 02, 2009

Shitty day~

Crazy woman showing all her crazy stunts!
I just can't stand such people!!!!!

Ok, let's say something happy...
We celebrated my FIL's birthday yesterday at his sister's hse...
Yesterday was also Rhys First birthday, according to the lunar calendar...
My boy is already so big!!!!!

Wonder what dream Dariz had last night..
Middle of the night he called out to me with his eyes closed..
When I respond, he said 'Mummy, I Love You!'
and give me a peck on the cheek,
all the time with his eyes closed~

Imagine how sweet I felt????

I can still taste the sweetness now~

Wanna look for a new job..
Maybe something related to what I am studying now..
But the market is so bad...
Even if I found one, the pay wont be as high as what I'm gettign now...

Haiz~

Should I stay or go????

Labels: Work

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:23 PM