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Saturday, September 27, 2008

I dunno where I should start..
I have quite a few thing to blog about...
On things, on people, on thoughts, and many others..

Met F for supper last night with M and another guy..
I dunno who's that guy is as no introduction was made..
Hubby saw her getting a packet of pills from that guy..
When hub asked her casually what was it,
she said it's her medicine (she claimed that she wasn't feeling well)
They sat for less than half an hour b4 M sound out that she wanted to leave..
Saying that it was because E (M's bf) was at F's hse...
F's mum would start to question them if they stay out for too long..
That was when I find that they're acting kind of strange
They then walk over to 7-11 and got 2 bottles of coke..
Hur~ That explains why they're in a rush to go home..
I feel so sad after seeing what they did to themselves...
Why can't they love themselves??
I dun understand~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:02 PM

Friday, September 26, 2008

http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,177944,00.html?

Got this link from SMH.
This baby was suspected of being abused by her nanny.
At 1yr of age, she still could not turn herself around.
Her right eye is blind, left eye could still detect some light.
Heard from the mummy at SMH that now she recognize ppl from smelling
She might never regain her sight again..

Haiz~ Go to the link if you wanna know more...

Poor baby~

I wonder if the nanny could sleep peacefully at night
Won't her conscience hunt her????

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:38 PM

I don't know what to write
I have an whole hour all by myself..
The whole office is empty..
I have the whole office all by myself..
I can roll from one end to another without bumping on anyone
(but will bump into things, of course)

I'm so BORING!!!!!!!!!

was thinking of going to T3 this sunday with my kids..
Bring them there to see Aeroplane..
To walk around... To eat... To shop!!!!!!!!!

Recommendation from a PM:

There;s this restaurant in T3 by the name of Popeyes
It's something like KFC, but it's much more nicer..
Hmm... Mere thought of it is making me drool..
Went on net to search and found its webby
It's menu is something similar to KFC's..
Will try it this Sunday if I actually go to T3..
Outings nowadays are subject to the kids approval...
So ya, can't cfm if I'll be going...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:13 PM

Artist: Jason Mraz
Album: We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things
Title: I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracksand now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family ([2nd time:] ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:00 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

The recent China's milk powder scandal...

make me shun all China made products...

Not only that, but products with milk as well...

I have mixed feeling regarding this matter...

And of course, none of them are good...

My heart goes out to those babies and Daddies/Mummies

I know how it feels to see your baby suffering,

but you cant do anything to help...

What actually happened???

Heard from Dear Dear actually this incident can be avoided...

In order to protect themselves, they did not insist on recalling all products off shelves...

Is that really the case??

If so, Is it worth it???

Now you gotta bear consequences more drastic than what u were afraid to bear...

Not only you got yourself into more trouble, but others as well...

I was down with sore throat since last Friday...

Yuhui came to my house to acc me..

But I slept throughout the whole afternoon after I took my medicine..

Bad me....

Sometimes I find myself really lucky to have such a wonderful friend like Yuhui.. =)))

Have a very strong urge to have Ah Seah's Teochew Porridge (near Kovan)

I dunno why, I just feel like eating teochew porridge today

Took half day leave to see Doctor again..
The one I saw last week did not gave me antibiotics..
I know it's not good to have antibiotics all the time
But I have infection in my throat
I need antibiotics for it to heal!!!!
The one I saw today gave me some antibiotics
Hopefully I'll get better by this evening..

Naughty me..
With a sore throat, I still ordered curry sotong for lunch today...
You see, what a 'glutton' am I!!!

Last weekend
Brought Travis and Dariz to GPA Dentalcare @ Goldhill
for their very first dental visit last Saturday...
The Dr, Dr Merry-Anne, found a hole at the 2nd last tooth on the left side of travis' teeth
She cleaned his teeth for him before proceed to do the filling..
The Dr said that Travis teeth are quite crowded together..
So it's very easy for the food to stuck in between his teeth
I wonder if this is genetic as his father's teeth are also like that..
I did asked but the Dr said that it's hard to say now as they're still baby teeth..
On the contrary, Dariz's teeth are spaced out and perfectly alright...
Unlike Travis', it's easy to clean out all the food stuck in between his teeth..
All Dariz need was just some thorough cleaning....
It took about an hour for my 2 princes to do their teeth...
And the bill????
$299.60 for the both of them....
No wonder more ppl are going into dentistry....
It's easy money~
I almost gasped out when I saw the bill....
Haiz~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:32 PM

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Though it happened more than 6 yrs ago..
But I am still deeply affected by this happening...

I dunno why I still miss her so much..
I often wonder how would she look like if she's here now
Would she look like her father or would she look like me???

Big eyes??
Cherry cheeks??
Curly hair??

Sometimes in the middle of the night
I hope for her to return to me..
Come back as my child again
Let me make all up to her...

I dunno why I still hate the one who make me do this..
I feel absolutely ok with her around at normal times..
But whenever I tot of what she did to me..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:06 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Went blog reading
Saw a blog on parenting
this lady hates her mum so much
that she vowed she would never attend her funeral
Woo~
That's harsh..

My point on this issue:

1) You just have too much hatred in your heart.
You can't let go of the past, that's why you are unhappy now...

2) During a quarrel, why must u continue talking back to her??
If you just keep your bloody gap shut, I believe she wont
even say those things that she had said

3)As a mother yourself now, hw would u feel if ur boy
treats u the way u treat ur mother now 20yrs down the road??
As far as I knw, the things that you're doing now
are no better than what ur mum did in the past.

Dun tell me that I dun know what you have been through
Cos I went through hell too before I became what I am now
I keep telling myself I want to break out of that cycle
I dun want to be a useless person...
Though I'm not having very good life right now
But at least I'm working hard towards the path I've chosen
I can at least see a shimmer of light at the end of tunnel...
In no time I'll be out of the darkness

Do you think my mum fork out a single cent or help out a single part??

No! She did not!!!!!!

I am who i am because of my hard work....
No matter how good or how bad my life will be in the future
It will all be my own doings...
No one to blame... But all to thank..

1)Mother In Law:

for loving my children so much that she will sacrifice all to see that my children are well taken care of

for setting a positive example for me so that I know how I should act as a mother

2) Elder Sister:

for always putting me down... Make me feel inferior to you.. And that makes me wanna work harder to be (at least) on par with you.. Come on, we're from the same parents, sure I'm not that bad, right??

It's all in ur heart...
No one can control how u wanna feel

Life is not a coincidence but the mirror of your own doings....

Remember this!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:45 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Have no family, no husband, no kids...

Life is hard now..
Distance between me and him is even further away...
I dunno what he wants of me.
I'm doing my best to be a good mother, a good wife..
All I ask of him is him to be a good, loving & caring father and husband

I think I'm on the verge of breaking...
I'll snap anytime....
I dunno how much more stress I can take..
I dunno how long can I hold on still....

I want to run away from all this mess
I want to go to somewhere and start my life afresh
Leaving my kids all behind, I dunno if I'll regret in future...

I need time out...
I need a place where I can just relax my mind...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 6:07 PM

Friday, September 12, 2008

rain rain go away
come again another day
Isabella want to play

Not play actually. I gotta rush over to my PT work(place)
after I finish my work here.

Dear dear seems kind of weird recently.
He can quarrel with me over the smallest thing..
And I find that he is sort of very negative..
Not very supportive in anything I do
and waste most of his time in front of the CPU

The only time I see him laugh so happily in a day
is when he sit in front of the CPU and watch the
Japanese anime 'Guy Maid'..
He would be so engross in the show that he became oblivious
to all happenings around him.

We often quarrel due to his couldn't-careless- attitude
(In short - Bo chap attitude)

I took up 2 jobs to help supplement household income.
All I hope is life would be better for everyone.
And I have enough money to buy things for my children
and myself once in a while..

Last evening, we met Boeyven at AMK Hub as I
need to buy some clothes for work.
I have been wearing the same clothes week after week
Couldn't I buy some clothes for myself??
He had this black long face the whole evening..
Every time i asked for his opinion on the clothes that I've chose
He would say 'not nice' or 'like shit' or 'eek'
I was quite pissed off with his reaction and that led us to another round of quarrel

When we reached the void deck of our block
I asked him some Qs (forgotten what was it)
And he, as usual, gave me a 'nothing happen' (innocent look) answer
I remember telling myself
My marriage has failed...
I'm a total failure...

No matter how good I treat him
No matter how much I love him
I'm always worse than any others
who had conned him of his money..
Who had lie to him umpteen times..
Who had gotten him into big big trouble..

I feel that he's sinking deeper each day
He's just happy to live a meaningless life day after day
No matter how I try to talk sense into him
No matter how I try to encourage him
He is still happy to be the way he is now.

To summarize it: He has given up on his (current) life

I wouldn't know what will he become if we really have a divorce someday
Maybe he'll become happier..
Maybe he will lead a more fruitful life...

But...
What will my life become then????
And that of my kids????

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:02 PM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Tired, Tired, Tired

I'm really very very tired..
I have so much to blog but so little time to do so..

Will be working about 2-3 nights a week
excluding those days that i have to work during weekends..

Received a msg in MSN from a friend who went missing for a very long time..
Glad that he still remember me.. =)))

brought the kids to explorer kids @ downtown east..
They had a great time there...
So great that we have to practically drag them out of that palce..
~sigh~

Guess I'll stop here now~
My brains are protesting..
Gotta go have some rest before a 'riot' breaks out..
Till next time...
Tata~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:43 PM

Friday, September 05, 2008

artist: Gnarls Barkley
song: Crazy

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:42 AM

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Busy with work this week
Have started my part time job this Tuesday
Time with the kids became so precious..
I'll talk to them after I reach home..
To make up for the time lost..

Reach home around 8.30pm last night..
Dariz came running to me the first thing I stepped into the house
He complained that his daddy hit him
and refuse to let him play with the computer...

I went into the room and saw dear dear pulling a long black face.
Tred to initiate a conversation but he seem relunctant..
So I left him alone and go about dojng my stuff..
Talk to the kids, use the com...
normal stuff that I do everyday..

Check out the tickets available for the Thomas & Friends Live
Was about to book the tickets but change my mind during check out
when I saw the total amount I have to pay...
It cost $168 for all 4 person inclusive of the bokking fee..
Not too expensive, but i find that for this amount of money
I could have other alternatives to make them happy all day long..

Was on my com when suddenly Travis took the Phonics book
that come tgt with the A* Programme CD-Rom and ask me
how to read a word.
So without really bother to know what's happening,
I just told him hw to read..
Then i turn back and continue with my stuff....
Next thing I know:
Travis was reading from the book
I was so stunned!!!
No matter how I try to coax him
He never wanted to read by himself
And now he was reading by himself
Pointing to the word and read independantly...
Oh My!!!!
I'm so proud of him..
Haha~
I guess that's mama...
Getting excited over little things..
Though Travis is slower than peers his age..
But I guess he'll catch up sooner or later...

'Slow and steady win the race' - I hope this applies to Travis=)

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:51 PM

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

It's really only after some time den u will realize who's your friend after all
All these years, I've been treating a bunch of ppl
who dun give a damn about me as my close friends...
Only after some incidents, I realize they are not worthy of friends..

I guess it's time for me to realize that past is past..
No matter how hard i try
the past can never be the present..

There's no friends forever in this world..
There's only Forever Friends!

The gap between us is widening
They're happy with their life and I'm happy with mine
It's impossible to have either party
compromising our lifestyle to suit into that of another party..

Sometimes, it's good that one doesn't have too much friends...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:19 PM