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Thursday, March 27, 2008

我现在终于了解朋友的真正意思。

Ppl you know, Ppl who are close to you,
ppl whom u treasure and trust so much
might turn out not be your friends.
Some ppl might not even have a single
friend in all their life.
Ppl (i describe above) can be hypocritical to you.
They might be near you for a reason.
They might want something from you.
But they too, might never really take u as a friend.

So I'm glad!!!
Cos it seems like i have no friends at all..
But the truth is i have no hypocrites ard me.
God is fair.
He gives u some, he take away some.

I have no 'friends', but i have my family ard me.
I have a Aunt Sam who is always there when i need her.
A good sis who always like to 跟我唱反调。(That add spice to my life!!!)
3 lovely kids that keep me occupied most of the day.
Making me too busy even to sleep, （更别说想别的事情）
A mother who cooks for me whatever & whenever i
(or my sons) place order.
And often scolds me for bothering her,
making her do so many things that's deemed inconvenient by her.
But still do it nevertheless.
A hubby who loves and dotes on me,
but always like to do things that make me tot otherwise...

So what are friends for??
When u have so many ppl around you that
cares for you, love you and would never leave u
in the lurch when u need help.
I really can't think of what are friends for...
Can you?

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:20 PM

Try latching on to my newborn today.
It's not as hard as i tot it was.
But it's still as painful as i remembered.
One thing that's hard to be sure.
How much he has drank and is he hungry
or just wanting to latch-on for comfort.

Hubby will be going to the agency to fetch the maid later.
My mother in law can take things easy once the maid is here..
Need not work so hard for the family..
We can leave the household chores to the maid..
So that she can hv more rest..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:54 AM

Monday, March 24, 2008

Today is the 12Th day after delivery.

According to Chinese (confinement) custom

I can only bath, eat chicken,

eat food with lots of alcohol starting from today.
But naughty me, I've bathed on the 6Th day

after delivery when my mother in law was nt at hm..

No choice, my MIL is very particular about this kind of thing..

Just came back from TMC.

Brought my baby to the Pediatrics Clinic for his check-up.
His jaundice level is still acceptable

but he still need to be sunbathed every morning..

Have been breast-feeding my baby since the day he was born.

Stoo-pit me!

Dun even know hw to latch my baby on..

So gotta get help from my breast pump to get the milk out.

Am using Medela Swing nw..

Quite like this pump..

I find this pump better than Avent Isis that I've used earlier.

Maybe it's because tis is a electric pump whereas Avent Isis

is a manual pump.
This pump is easy to use, to assemble and small enough to

keep when you're not using it.

It has diff' suction strength for you to choose.

You can choose one that you're comfortable with and

the fastest/strongest to get the milk pumped out.

If i were to rate, I would rate 7.5/10.

Have been taking Fenugreek one week after

my baby was born to increase my milk flow.

Was introduced to this product by Yuhui.

She said that she took it too when she was nursing her twins.

Find it quite alright.

It does increase my milk flow quite significantly.

But the smell and taste of it ~blehx~

*I rather not talk about it*

Rating of this product: 5.5/10

Hubby got a call from the maid agency today saying that

we can fetch the maid on the 27Th.

So it's the day after tml.

Gotta choke out another $600 to top up for the loan different

~urghhh~

Hopefully this FDW might be of some help

and able to get along with my family.

Haiz~

After the FDW arrive, I will only be left with

worrying about a job and mu studies.

Useless me!!!

Have been trying hard to get some kind of recognize cert

since 2 yrs back but till now i still got nothing...

My sis almost completed her Degree..

God!!! (If there's really a god up there)

PLS HELP ME!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 5:53 PM

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Let us all welcome the 3rd (& most probably the last) baby of
Isabella Li & Joey Chiang

Rhys Tudore Chiang Yan Wen

Guess this was the hardest delivery i ever had.

Admitted to hospital @ 0828hr, 12 March 2008.
Got changed. Doctor came @ around 9am.
Guess my gynae was the busiest doc that day at TMC.
There was 3 babies waiting for him to bring them
to this world that morning.
I was the earliest to get there, but the last to come out of the delivery suite.

The first check was @ o915hr.
Dr said that my cervics had dilated about 3.5cm.
He pierced the amniotic fluid bag and put me on drip.
Was moved from observation room to delivery suite @ about 1000hr.

Started to feel slight contraction @ about 1130hr.
The pain grew intense within minutes.
Gave in to the pain & opt for epidural @ 1200hr.
Anesthetist came 10 mins later and the whole process
took less than 15 minutes.
Then came the 'waiting period'.

Slept thru the whole afternoon.
Felt the baby 'wiggling out' @ about 1600hr.
Told the nurse, and the nurse did a check
but said that cervics had dilated to 9cm
but baby's head not down yet..
That's funny...

They did a few check before the Dr came..
All showed the same result..
Dr came @ 1815hr.
Did final check & found that baby's head not in right position.
So that was the reason why whole thing took so long!!!
Instead of facing up, the baby's head was facing down.
Hence, delayed the speed of cervics dilating.

No choice, Dr used a vacuum cap to the turn the baby's head around.
I started pushing @ 1830hr.
Baby was born a few moments later..
This was how my baby looks like when he was born...

Ugly baby...
You see the lump on his head??
OMG!!!
Hurts me so much to see his head like this...

Baby's weight - 3240g

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 8:46 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008

Went for my regular check up today
Doc did a check on me..
He said that my cervic is already dilating..
He estimated tat i might go into labour anytime this week
So he told me to admit into this hospital this wednesday.

I'm pretty excited about it..
But scared at the same time..
The pain..
~whoOoo~
Dun think i can really take the pain..
But epidural is definitely out of the question.

Krist called me the other day.
She told me that her officer had found a
private school for her.
She'll be enrolling for the o level class there.
But as she's not 21 yrs old yet
She need her parents signature..
But sadly, none of her parents wants
to help her sign the docs.
They said that since she has got 3 kids to raise
She shld might as well just look for a job.
She shld be happy if she could look for a job
that pays her $800 - $900 a month.
She shld be conbtented with her current situation and
no try to do anything to change it.
I can't believe that such parents do exist here in Singapore..
Doesn't she knows that without any qualification in Singapore,
life would be as good as living hell?
I really dun understand what's wrong with these ppl
She just wants a o level cert so she could find a better job
with better pay so she could raise her kids on her own!
All she needs is a signature...
What's so hard about it?!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:24 PM

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Just got to know 2 more broken marriage..
That cause me to start questioning myself:
When will it be my turn??

That shows how fragile 'true love' is!!!
Once, he said he make me be the most
happiest woman in the world.
He will never make me cry..
If i ever cry, it will be the tears of joy...
He will shower all his love on me..
and provide me with the best, nothing less..
But now??
'piang~piang~piang~'
All dreams shattered...
Dreams over, it's time for the real world.
Where each man for himself..

I've tried all ways.. to understand why is
he treating me like this..
No luck...
He wont respond..
I've asked, he said he's still the same.. No change..
We've engaged in heated arguements..
He said nothing about how he feels..
Only pushing all blames on me..
I've begged, nothing came out too...
So where have all the promises he made to me?

Why is he treating me like this?
He got sick & tired of me??
Most probably..

I told myself:
It's ok, I'm still young..
I can take any kind of hardship..
Even if nothing comes out of it one day
I can also raise my sons on my own..
Who needs a man when they can provide
for themselves..

No denying
I still love him...
But with every heart break I went thru
my love for him decreases..

I'm trying to let go of this relationship..
to get used to the time when i will not have him..
To focus more on my kids..
My studies & my career..
I think i can only tolerate him for another 5 yrs..
If things dun work out,
I might file for a divorce once i got my new flat..
At least, by then me and my kids have a place to stay..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:37 PM