//...winter...\\

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Strange dream last night...

I dreamt that I'm going abroad
but i forget to bring my luggage along
The two of them become good frenx again..
Just like how they were in the past...
Arguement with someone I'm not on gd term with...
And that person send me a voice sms scolding me
And so on, so forth.....

Funny right???

人家说：“日有所思，夜有所梦”。

Wonder what am i thinking of in the daytime
that'll make me have this kind of dream in the night...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:01 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

王菀之:窗外阴天了音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了灯光也暗了
音乐低声了口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了电话响起了
你要说话了还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了是你变了是你变了
灯光熄灭了音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了人是不快乐我的心真的受伤了

选自:『张学友活出生命 live 演唱会』词:王菀之曲:王菀之

张学友: 电话响起了你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了是你变了
灯光熄灭了音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

张学友王菀之:我的心真的受伤了

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:24 AM

歌曲：你要的爱

虽然经常梦见你
还是毫无头绪
外面正在下着雨
今天是星期几
but i don`t know
你去那里
虽然不曾怀疑你
还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己

我明白我要的爱
会把我宠坏
像一个小孩
只懂在你怀里坏
你要的爱
不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:19 AM

歌曲：怎样

作词:戴佩妮作曲:戴佩妮

我这里天快要黑了
那里呢
我这里天气凉凉的
那里呢
我这里一切都变了
我变的懂事了
我又开始写日记了
而那你呢
我这里天快要亮了
那里呢
我这里天气很炎热
那里呢
我这里一切都变了
我变的不哭了
我把照片也收起了
而那你呢

如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是深爱着对方
像开始时那样握着手就算天快亮
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅我不会原谅
我怎么原谅

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:15 AM

追 - 張國榮
曲︰李迪文 詞︰林夕編︰GEORGE LEONG

這一生　也在進取　這分鐘卻掛念誰
我會說　是唯獨你　不可失去
好風光　似幻似虛　誰明人生樂趣
我會說　為情為愛　仍然是對

＊誰比你重要　成功了敗了也完全無重要
誰比你重要　狂風與暴雨都因你燃燒

＃一追再追　只想追趕生命裡一分一秒
原來多麼可笑　你是真正目標
一追再追　追蹤一些生活最基本需要
原來早不缺少　WO

＋有了你　即使平凡卻最重要

好光陰　縱沒太多　一分鐘那又如何
會與你　共同渡過　都不枉過
瘋戀多　錯誤更多　如能重新做過
我會說　願能為你　提前做錯

重唱　＊,＃,＋,＃

只得你　會叫我彷彿人群裡最重要
有了你　即使沈睡了　也在笑

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:05 AM

Jasmine's last day of work..
H2O told her that yesterday...
Criticising her work to the max..
Truth?? Or just some excuse to make
themselves look/feel less guilty???

Feeling rather down today..
All of a sudden..
Kim broke off with Joven...
just told me yesterday..
I failed to give her good advice..

Ppl come, ppl go...
Who will stay with us forever???
Family?? Frenx??
My answer: no one

Pessimistic?? Maybe...
I've gone through too much..
Dare not carry anymore hope in life again..
Hope life is smooth sailing..
But do i dare hope??
No...

Higher your expectations are
Greater you will fall...
Who said so??
Nvm about that....
But it's true..
I can't take another great fall
It'll kill me...

I'm expecting..
5 weeks.. and dunno hw many days...
EDD: 22 march 2008.
Aries baby....
Same as me and hubby

Guess gotta employ a maid after i give birth to this baby
Still thinking whether to go thomson medical or KK hospital
to deliver this baby...
No doubt, KK hospital will definitely be cheaper..
But Thomson medical's service is better..
Haiz~ "head big" ah!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:26 AM

Monday, July 23, 2007

Mooncake festival coming...
Still thought of going to Taka Square
(like last year) to shop for mooncake...
Luckily for Jane Yong's reminder....
There'll be plenty of mooncake treats from the agents here..
Haha~ Can save quite a bit...

Went to ebuzz and saw the new credit card by citibank.
Credit limit of only $500 per month...
Still thinking of the pro and cons of the card...
Dun find it really good..
But quite tempted to get one..
But scared will run into debts because of it wor...
Hate the feeling of owing ppl's money...
Gotta think it over...

Went to another womens clinic and check out on the package
C.H Koh at Toa Payoh..
Frenz say it's quite good
Caring doctor...
But f*ck-up recept staff...
And super long waiting hour...
Average wating time with appointment: 1~2hrs
zzzzzzzzz.....
I can bring my pillow and bolster there and
sleep while waiting...
~so long~

Think I'll stick back to the one i'm seeing now..
The price is about the same..
And the service is better..
So why bother to change?!?!?

Used the chinese gender calculation method...
and it shows that it'll be another BOY again...
Haiz~ hope there's some miscalculation...
I rwally want a baby girl!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:27 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007

Went to see doc last night @ Womens Clinic of Singapore(amk).
Doc confirmed I'm 5 weeks pregnant.
Estimared delivery date: 22 March 2008.
Aries Baby... Haha...
Pray hard it's a baby girl...

Went to young&nutrition website and create my pregnancy
countdown ticker..

BABY AT 5 WEEKS
1)Length: 1.25 mm (Size of the tip of a pen)

2)Central nervous system begins to develop.

3)Brain and spinal cord start to form.

4)Traces of eyes and ears on the sides of the head can be detected.

5)Liver and kidneys are beginning to develop.

6)Muscles and bones are also in early stage of development, although bones are not going through hardening or calcification process yet.

7)Walls of heart are now forming and the heart will beat by the end of the week.

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:54 AM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Tested again this morning after i reached office... It shows a <+> sign.... Am i pragnent?? I think we can cfm that I am expecting again... Congratulate me!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 11:00 AM

Tested this last night... Result shows one line lighter and one line darker initially... 5 mins after the test is done, the 2nd line darkens as well.... So I'm pregnant??? Or inacurrate result?? Decide to test again....

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:55 AM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Outing to the zoo on last Saturday... The journey goes.....

My boy with the giant tortoise....

The whole group of us... But, where's me???

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:15 AM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Stupid CPF website!

keep lagging...

Can't even go in to check my statement....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:31 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007

Enrolled Travis for music class with Verve Music School. Whole thing cost $260 for 11 lessons. Class will start on 21 July 2007 and ends on 6 October 2007. There'll be 4 Modules altogether, equivalent to 44 lessons. Which took about a year or so to finish. So to finish the whole course, it'll cost about $980. Time to tighten my belt.

Will be enrolling Dariz for the same course when he's 3yrs old.. That'll be next year, after January.

Jasmine is not feeling well and is on MC today. So I'm left all alone during lunch time.. Jane Yong did invite me to join them for lunch, but I declined. They're going for Mos burger, while I craved for the Nasi Lemak selling in the foodcourt. Today will be the last day of their business, they're moving out tomorrow as that part of the foodcourt will be doing upgrading soon. I'll miss the Nasi Lemak.....

Going for my medical checkup tomorrow morning at Ocean Tower, Raffles... Called up and they confirmed that it'll be a lady doctor.. It's alright for me even if it's a male doc. My gynae is a male too.. So, Who cares!

Bringing both my boys to the Zoo this coming sunday. I think it's time I bring them to these places more often.. It'll do good to them, no doubt. Better then making them cope up at home all day. They'll become eccentric sooner or later if i let them go on like this. Ben & Kamtat will be coming with me. Wonder will aries come along too. Jas says she will come, but still not confirmed yet. I doubt she'll be able to come since she's not feeling well today.. Estimated about $100 for this trip(inclusive of tickets).

Will try to post some pics of me and my boy in zoo if possible.. Hope my boys will enjoy the trip..

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:35 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

I still tot of that fateful day where one wrong step brought me to where I am now.

We had dinner and supper together, we were still planning on where to go and how to celebrate his birthday. And in just a matter of minutes, everything shattered. We were no more friends. No more bros and sis, not even stranger. Sometimes i'm really sad at how fragile and unpredictable life can be.....

I know i have to put down everthing n carry on with my life. What done cannot be undone... Yes, I know... I clearly understand what does all these words mean.. But I just can't ast as if nothing happened and carry on with my life like this. I'm a living thing, I have feelings.. I feel sad when i lost something too... And no denying, though he's no good man, but i feel sad that we can't be friends now....

Haiz~ I know I've been saying the same thing in my recent post. But this is something I can talk to no one.. I dunno how to... So i rather just write it down.... At least there's a channel for me to pour my heart out, I won't feel as terrible...... Bear with me, everyone... I'll stop when my wound is heal......

~Enough of the sad sad thing~

~Life will be better from now on~

~Love the people who loves you~

~Do things you won't regret~

~Cos regret is a terrible feeling~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:36 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Lost a frenx today. Or should i say officially lost? I think i've already lost this frenx when the thing happened. Only that we did communicate through sms and msn regarding that matter and I tot we're still friends.

But today, it suddenly dawn on me that he's not a worthy friend for us to hold on. He didn't even try to salvage the relationship between him and his 'closest' bro. He's the one involved but not trying to do anything, why should i bother still....

It's funny how you wake up one day and find the one that you have trusted and respect for so long actually broke your trust and shattered the respect you had for him. You suddenly find yourself silly for trusting and respecting him for so long and only to find out he's no better then a wimp after all these years.. Isn't it ironic?

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 12:32 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007

Slept with travis last night. He wants to be with me, so i brought dariz over to my in law's room as my room have only enough space for one. Travis has been making this request to sleep in my room since last friday. The reason I couldn't approve it was because if I let travis sleep in my room, Dariz has to go over my in law's room to sleep, which my mother in law doesn't want.

I doesn't wants to see the disappointment in Travis' eyes anymore, so i brought him into my room and let him sleep with me, despite my mother-in-law's disapproval. He were very happy with the arrangement. I kiss him and 'sayang' him and we chatted. Suddenly he bombed me with a question, he asked:" Mummy, Do you love Kor Kor???". I answered: " 当然啦！！！ Mummy 最疼就是哥哥了！"

He's happy with my answer. But from this question he posed me, I saw red light flickering. It shows how insecured he feels, how low his self-esteem are. He thought we doesn't like him, so he ask me this question. I feel sad to answer this question. This shows what a failure I am. It's time I should do something about it. Guess should starts with the way i communicate with him. Should use a nicer tone when talking to him. Refrain from shouting and scolding him. Talk to him nicely. These are the few things i need to change. Show him more attention and let him know how much i love him actually.

Will try it out for a few days and see how he reacts to the change. If he's comfortable with it, I'll den proceed with other things. Will update again...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:04 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

性格分析:为人有进取心,但稍嫌性急.有竞争之心,
不肯服输,能积蓄财富及有一定的社会地位.
是一个野心家,有独裁之心,意志顽强,不会永远安于现状.
头脑灵活，易受感动，计划达不到时，有缺乏耐心和易发火的倾向，
非常爱好海洋，愿意为自己所爱的人牺牲。命造简批:在事业方面，
可以受到母亲辈的帮助。一生奔波,但有旅行,转移或出国的喜事.上有兄姊，有独立分家的倾向。受祖上福荫，事业可发展，平安福禄。家中主权在父，或幼年为养子。性情刚直而不屈服之特性。适合艺术家、医生、明星、星相命理学家、理发业。对子女较不利。为人衣禄不少，心性温柔，出入压众，初年颠倒，晚岁利达，兴家丰隆，夫妻和合，儿女见迟，女人操持兴旺，荣隆之命。适合的职业：仲买人、料理、金融界、五金商、钟表、银楼。忌木类。应该注意年限：十九岁，廿二岁，廿八岁，卅岁，四二岁，五四岁，七二岁。

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 4:13 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Let's start from last Saturday

30/06/07
Went to the new Cathay cinema at AMK hub for midnight show. Watched 'TRANSFORMER" with Dear, Alex, Jas and my beloved aries... The show starts at 11.10pm and ended around 2am. Saw wang zai when we're moving out of the building. He also watched the same show at the same time, only different cinema hall... Aries went to Johnny 2 thumbs(hope i didn't get the spelling wrong!) to cover her tattoo in the afternoon. Her little sparrow is gone and comes a new tribal sparrow-like tattoo...

02/06/07
Was converted to permanent staff. Coincidentally, it was also Jas first day of work. She was assigned to the Service Counter as Regina was on urgent leave for 2 days. so she gotta take over her duties but will be back to the sales team when Regina is back.

Went to fetch my sons and return home after that. Jas was with me all the time till after supper. Went to see doctor for my cough and to get weight management medications. Jas also tried the weight management medi. Only her dosage is milder....

Aries came to TPY hub to look for me after she brought ham ham to the pediatrician located in TPY. Ham was running a high fever the day before and there were mosquito bites on his body that will swell up like bubbles. The doc says his fever and the bites are alright, no big deal about it, but his windpipe is sensitive and needs to be on the puff for 6 months at least to improve his conditions.

03/06/07
Worked for the whole day. Keyed in 40 transactions. Was discussing about this 'lady boss' in my company. Doing nothing the whole day, taking leaves and MC all the time, come and go as she please and do her work at her own comfortable pace totally forgetting about the deadlines that were to be met. But she still get to keep her job.. Wonder what the management is thinking.. This is totally unfair to all of us... But come to think of it, it's best not to interfere in anything.. I'm just a small fry anyway....

Saw my dad's transaction. He had sold his shop for SGD605,000. The closing agent name Johnson Tan. Haiz~ Finally, after about a year of looking around for buyers and haggling of price, he sold his shop. Dad once said that after he had sold his shop, he will move the family out of Sengkang. Wonder when will they start to look for another house...

Went to PS with Jas after work. We reached there around 7pm. and shop till 8pm before heading for some coffee at starbucks. We sat at Starbucks till 8.45pm and went up to Giordano for some last min shopping.. Bought a halterneck cost $33. Not bad, quite nice.. It covers up the front and bare the back. And it doesn't make me look too fat in it. Neat!

Bought a skirt-$46 and a mini coat-$59 at fountain (did i get the spelling right???) It look nice.. Though it's a little bit ex, but given the quality and the design, it's quite reasonable.. Went to look for Alex at Parklane before heading home tgt. Met dear dear at the dumpling shop and have our supper. Reached home at about 11.20pm.. That's how i spent my whole day...

04/06/07
Regina came back to work today. She look... happy(the one word closest in meaning to what i wanna express). Jas was back to the sales team but is doing filing and not transaction now.. The day - so far so good!! Aries will be coming down to my workplace to get the chamber during lunch time later. Her boss sent her a msg this morning obviously asking her to pack her things and go. She replied the sms telling them that she will tender her resignation and will serve the one month notice as stated.. Haiz~ My poor aries, wonder what will happen to her then if she can't find a job after this and if her mother in law refuse to help her.. Hope everything will be fine for her.. A single mother and a child... God knows how hard their life is...

Guess that'll be all for now. Will update again soon, see ya!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:27 AM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Wasn't in the best of mood lately..
Especially after what happened that day.
Dear and my relationship has improved since then...
He's more willing to accompany me now
and is more sensitive to my feelings now..

The reason I'm moody?
I caused my hubby to lost a friend
If that thing doesn't happened
They would now still be the best of budz

Went to the doc last night for my cough.
And to get Duramine again...
My weight sky-rocketed to 71kg in less then 6 months...
Imagine how lost i feel??
Oh my god!
Hopefully i get back in shape soon...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:43 AM

Monday, July 02, 2007

I am being officially converted to permanent staff on

02 July 2007 @ 9.00am

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:01 AM

It has been about a week since that thing happened.

Dear dear's heart is still aching, I know...

He still think of what happened that fateful morning

every now and then... I dunno why I'll do such thing...

And i also dunno why the other party got to be his best of budz..

I felt very remorseful...

I hurt him alot.. alot...

But he forgave me..

He love me more now...

Giving me more care and attention

compared to the past...

We talked the other night.

Heart to heart talk ....

I told him everything that was

kept in my heart the last 5 years...

And repeat the things that he was

too 'deaf' to hear in the past...

I know his feelings towards me now..

I know how much he love me now..

And I love him more then ever...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:38 AM