Wednesday, January 03, 2007
A fresh new year, A brand new start!!!
Forget the past and look forward to a bright future.
Time flies.. Really flies too fast. Wow!! In another 2 more years I'll be an old hag. Can you imagine? I'm 21 this year... Others might be looking forward to be 21. But to me, NO!!!
This is a very important year for me. This is the fifth year i'm with my hubby(The first half decade). Hopefully we'll still have many half decade to spend together.
My baby has grown up. He's in N1 this year. In no time, he'll be in primary school, then secondary, then poly/JC, then he'll be a grown up and lead his own life. And I won't be able to hear him waking me up every morning. How I'll miss it!
New year's resolution?
Hmm...
1)Quit smoking(SUCCESSFULLY!!!!)
2)Drink lesser.
3)Club lesser(best will be once a year)
4)Spend more time with my kids.
5)Spend more tiem with my loved ones.
6)Improve on my attitude and my temper.
7)Earn more money den ever!!!
Haha!! Hopefeully i can achieve half of my new year's resolution before the year ends(Starts slow, starts low).
Wah~~
Lunch time le... Continue when i come back!!!
(going home to play with my baby dariz~)
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Im back!!! I'm back!!!
So many things to do after lunch.. Finally can sit down and continue with my blog.
Like what i said just now, Start slow, start low. Expect myself to fulfill half of the resolution first. at the same time boost my confidence so i can achieve more harder things easily.
My wish since young is to be a devoted housewife and mummy. But due to the circumstances I'm in right now, I have no choice but to work. Juggling with 3 roles at a time(not forgetting to be a good daughter-in-law too, that's 4 roles altogether!!!) is really not easy. I got to be patient with everything and not blow my top or throw temper like how i used to now. Gotta teach my sons to write and read(a teacher, 5 roles!!), do housework, help my hubby with whatever things he need me, and do my best in my work(so i won't be fired~).. the list goes on. But i guess that's what life is. Unless you can prove that you are useful, you'll be no different from a thrash. That's what i believe. That's also one of my goal- To be a useful person. Do something for my family and the society. Sounds noble? Nope, i dun think so. This is just one of my expectation of myself. And I"m trying hard to work towards it.
I'm actually a 'spoiler', I spoils everybody's fun sometimes. Like what happened last night. My god-brother, boeyven, whom i known for 10yrs met us for supper. As it was his birthday yesterday, my hubby decide to treat him to a meal. So he ask boeyven to order anything he wants and my hubby will just foot the bill. The first thing boeyven wants to eat is crab. I'm a buddhist, as you all know. I believe in Karma and everything. I try not to eat crabs and prawns and frogs and things that are cooked fresh(in a sense that: they are killed because you want to eat them). Buddhist believes that you are actually accumulating sins by eating these animals because they die for you. And the sins, sort of, double up during joyous occasions. So for his good, i persuaded him not to order it. And i succeed!!! Then he said he wants to eat prawns, the same thing happened again. So, in the end, he order cha kway tiao instead and eat it with a 'black face'. So you understand what i mean now? I can really spoil your fun sometimes.. But i really dun mean it. If i know and i dun say, I'll feel really bad about it.
I find everything in this earth are equal. Animals should have equal rights as we human too. But i know that it is not possible. The course of nature is not made in this way. But i just wants to do my part to help though i know what i wish for will never come true.
Lifes' ups and downs can really bring a toll on you. But without the downs, one will never experience ups, and vice versa. So i think it's good to live a up and down life. You learn more, know more and grow up faster. That's a saying in chinese 吃得苦中苦,封为人上人。It means that you'll walk out a better man if you are able to take all ups and downs of life. This is often used to encourage people who are experiencing a downturn of their life. I, too, often encourage myself with this saying when I'm at the down point. You just have to go throught the rough patch of your life to grow up.
I'm in the down point of my life. Hope I'll be able to pull through it. All i need is to live another 20 yrs of hard life, and my good days will come.
My sons will grow up, I'll regain my freedom.
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snowflakes at 11:43 AM