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Friday, December 29, 2006

Your Icecream Flavour is...Neopolitan!

You aren't satisfied with just one flavor. They say variety is the spice of life and this shines through in your Ice cream of choice! Just don't eat all the chocolate and leave the strawberry and vanilla behind!

What is your Icecream Flavour?

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ice_b3ll86 Highway

Mt. Happiness	9
Bankruptcity	22
Family Farm	47
Study Hall	113
Bewilderment Avenue	240
Please Drive Carefully

Where are you on the highway of life?

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Isabella
LOVES
Joey

21021
3123
435
78

Love Level: 78%

Loves-O-Meter
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Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK]

You are a Square!

You are a total dork. The pocket protecter and thick-lensed glasses give it away. Try watching some popular TV.. Get yourself some fashion sense already! On the plus side, no wait hang on, there is no plus side! Nerdsville, population YOU!

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How to make a Isabella

Ingredients:

1 part friendliness

1 part self-sufficiency

1 part empathy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little caring if desired!

Personality cocktail
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IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 2:31 PM

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		9
Acts of Service:		6
Quality Time:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:59 PM

nothing much to write actually. Dun even know what to write...

Feeling mix emotion right now. Dunno why... Sometimes i just feel like a failure, sometimes i feel like everything. Wonder where i got this kind of feeling...

Taught my son to write the letter 'a' last night... Everything was fine at first... After that, dunno i 'ki what siaox~', ended up scolding him.. Sad~~ My poor boiz...

He's a little slow.. I know.. I did tell myself to be patient with him. But sometimes when he can't do things boys his age do, I feel a little worried. And i tend to feel very frustrated.. I dunno why.. But i just feel that.

I love them more then anything in my life... All i want is for them to be good.

But sometimes, I feel very lost.. I dunno how to help him.. I just hope that this is a passing phrase and he'll catch up with the others in the future..

Maybe i should just bring him to the specialist @ KK Hospital. Let them assess him. So that I'll know where the problem lies on...

Haiz~ What should i do?

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 1:42 PM

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Geek In The Pink

Well let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
I may be skinny at times but I'm fat fulla rhymes
Pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it
Isn't it delicious crazy way that I'm kissin'
Cause baby listen to this don't wanna miss it while it's hittin'
Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
But don't ever quit cause soon I'm gonna let you in but see

I don't care what you might think about me
You can vibe without me if you wantI could be the one to take you home
Baby I could rock the night aloneIf we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forget what you already knowI could be the one to turn you on
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away

I'm the geek in the pink pink pink
I'm the geek in the pink yeah

Well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
At least I talk about it keep a pattern of flattery and
She was starin' through the doorframe
Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention, see

I don't care what you might think about me
You'll get by without me if you wantI could be the one to take you home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it sure would be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already knowI could be the one to turn you on
You could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

I am more than you're thinking
Hey look at me go
From hero to zero
Oh, take it from a geek like me
I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
Who wouldn't care if you com...plete him or not

So what I've got a short attention span
A coke in my hand
Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand
My hip hop and flip-flops it don't stop with the light rock
A shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
The hype is nothing more than hoo-ha so I'm
Developing a language and I'm callin' it my own

So take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean
That on the other side the grass is greener

I don't care what you might think about me
You'll get by without me if you want
I could be the one to take you home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you on
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

I'm the geek in the pink pink pink
I 'm the geek in the pink yeah
I'm the geek in the pink
All y'all geek is the new color for fall

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:07 AM

My Love (T.I., Justin Timberlake)

And I know no woman that could take your spot my...

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
(What would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular?
(Tell me would you?)
Well baby I've been around the world
But I aint seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there is just one thing I need from you (saying I do)

[Chorus]
Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us in the country side
Sitting on the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love

And I know no woman that could take your spot (My Love)

(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love

And I know no woman that could take your spot (My Love)

My loooooooove, looooooove

My loooove ohhhhh
My loooove ohhhhh

Now If I wrote you a love note
And make you smile with every word I wrote
(What would you do?)
Would that make you wanna change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team?
(Tell me would you?)
See what's the point in waiting anymore
Cause girl I've never been more sure
(That, baby it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you been waiting for
(Just saying I do)

Yeah...

[Chorus]
Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us in the country side
Sitting on the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love

And I know no woman that could take your spot (My Love)

(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love

And I know no woman that could take your spot (My Love)

My loooooooove, looooooove

My loooove ohhhhh
My loooove ohhhhh

[T.I.]
Aight it's time to hit it Jay-Z
I dunno why she hasitatin' for man

Ay, shorty cool as a fan
I'm on a new once again
And still have fans from Peru to Japan
Listen baby I don't wanna ruin your plan
But if you got a man, try to leave 'em if you can
Cause girls real wild throw hands up high
When they wanna come and kick it with a stand up guy
Check it - You don't wanna let the chance go by
Cause you ain't been seen with a man so fly
Baby France ain't so far, I can go fly
Private, cause I handle mine B.I.
They call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation, so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up - What you mean, you can't go, why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no type
You say you wanna kick it, when I ain't so high
But baby you decide that I ain't your guy
I ain't goin lie, I feel your space
But I'll forget your face, I swear I will
Same mark, same bullet anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

[Chorus]
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us in the country side
Sitting on the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

My love (Looooooove)
My love (Looooooove)
My love (Looooooove)

And I know no woman that could take your spot (My Love)

My love (Looooooove)
My love (Looooooove)
My love (Looooooove)

And I know no woman that could take your spot (My Love)

My loooooooove, looooooove

My loooove ohhhhh, My loooove ohhhhh
My loooove ohhhhh, My loooove ohhhhh

My loveeeee, loveeeee, loveeeee

Labels: Songs

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 9:02 AM

Raining heavily now... Such nice weather.. Best for sleeping...Haha!!! But too bad, I can't sleep... Gotta work...

My leg is aching.... Feeling so terrible. HELP!!!!

The aching is so bad that i cant even concentrate on doing my things... Damn it!!!

Listening to song right now... All time fvourite: Geek In The Pink - Jason Mraz. The next song will be 'my love', one of my favouritez too.

Nothing to do... Nothing to writez... Blog off then...

Buaiz~

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 8:46 AM

Friday, December 22, 2006

Oh my god!!! I just remember what I dreamt last night!!!!!

Make a guess...

No???

Alright then... Let me tell ya...

I dreamt of grandpi last night!!!!!! We were in a very crowded place. Something like a hawker center or stuffs like that. There's a lot of people around us. I was there with another person but I can't remember who. I guess it's my sister. Cos I can feel that that person is someone very close to me. We seems to be looking for someone or something when my grandfather appear in front of us. He was wearing a gray button shirt, taking something on his hand. And in my dream, he was walking!!! Not like how he was before he passed away, being confined to a wheel chair. We were so happy when we saw him, and quickly look for a place for him to sit. We started chatting like how we used to be when he was still around. Not realizing that he had actually already left us. Suddenly, the one beside me start shaking me and reminded me that grandpi had already passed away. But I wasn't scared at all, I was like 'oh, ya hor...' And I turn back to grandpi and tell him how sad I was that he's gone and I can never see him again. But he smile and said that he can buy a hi-card and give me his no, so that no matter where he is, we can still keep in contact!!!

I was over the moon when I hear grandpi saying this. This means that I can stay in contact with him no matter where he is!!!! Isn't that great???

I was so happy that I insist that we should go get a hi-card immediately. We then get up from where we were and proceed to get the card. But I have no recollection that we actually went into a shop or something like that. And wasn't very sure if he did give me his no. But I know when I left, I was feeling very happy. And I promised that I'll look for him again.

Then my stupid alarm goes off!!!!!!

^zZzZzZzZzZz^

Finally... After so long... my chance(of dreaming grandpi) came...

Grandpi... He's the same even in my dream. He still console me whenever I'm down. (Like how I mention earlier when I told him how sad I was that h's gone and I couldntt get in touch with him and he gave me a solution to the problem...) He was like this when he's alive. When I have any problems, or any uncertainties, he'll help me solve it and give me reassurance. I know the sky is always bright with granpi around. And even if the sky falls down, I need not be afraid cos grandpi is always there!!! Even when he's weak and frail, I know I could still count on him to give me the strength to carry on.

But now that he's gone, I feel lost at times.

I blame myself for not giving him enough attention when he's alive. For not kissing him enough, for not telling him enough of 'I love you', for not being there when he needed someone to be there for him.

(*Selfish bit^h!!!*)

I could only live in remorse now.

My advice to all: Love everone around you like there's no tomorrow. You'll never know when they'll be gone. And when they're gone, you know that you've put in your best for them. And you won't have any regrets like me.

Still...

It was a nice dream afterall... How I wish that it wasn't a dream. That I can really keep in contact with him now.

How i hope i can drem of Grandpi everyday...

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:13 AM

Thursday, December 21, 2006

I have always being fond of babies. No matter what colour they are. I find that babies are the only beings in this world that are pure & innocent. That's why some people claim that babies are little angels god sent to brighten up your life. They have no ulterior motive when they are nice to you. Their wish is simple. They just want you to be happy and so they are happy. And by making you happy, they tend to do a lot of things for you just to see you smile. That's what my boys do...

No matter how harsh I am to them. No matter how unreasonable I am to them.. At the end of the day, they'll still do things for me... Just to see me smile. Whenever my hubby bully me(playing), I'll fake crying & you'll see a hero coming to my rescue. That's my boy, Little Travis.

He's only 3 yrs old. But I find him more mature then boys his age. He's the usual boy though, the usual baby... He'll cry when his toys are being taken away by his classmates or his little brother. He'll shout for mummy when he wets his pants(YES, he still wet his pants now). He'll feel sad when we promise to bring him out but did not do so. He's the usual baby... He does what boys his age does.

But what makes him so special is how mature he present himself & the little things he does that we never thought a baby his age knows.

When he spills a cup of water, he'll take a cloth to wipe the water. And he knows that if the amount of water is a lot, he'll squeeze the cloth dry and carry on wiping until the floor is wet. He knows that wet floor are slippery, & he'll forbid his baby brother to walk around whenever my mother in law is wiping the floor, and he'll explain to this brother why. He look after his brother. And he looks after me too.

I remember once I was sick. I was down with a flu and a 39 degree Celsius high fever. I was on the bed all day. Feeling so terrible. I couldn't even get out of bed to pour myself a drink. Little Travis was playing in the living room. After a while, he came into my room and called me. I told him that I was sick and asked him to stay away from me for fear he might get the flu bug from me. He stood there looking at me with a confused look on his face. What he did next was really sweet. He opened the drawer and look for the digital thermometer. Then he came beside me and felt my forehead before he placed the thermometer in my ear and took my temperature even though he doesn't even know how to read the thermometer. When it beeps a second later, he took it out from my ear, and as if he knows what it showed, he gasped and said to me:'Mummy, You are running a fever!'. Then he put the thermometer down and stood beside the bed and stroke my head. Before he go, he said to me :'Mummy, you orh-orh(sleep), ok? I go out play-play huh!!! You dun get out of bed, ok???' Then he kiss my head and go out to the living room to look for his baby brother.

Sweet, isn't it!?

My son.. Isn't he such a sweet little baby... Not only this incident, but also a few other little things he did that makes him so special.

Even if he just quarrel with his little brother awhile ago, he'll still help him up if he falls. He'll also tell his baby brother it's ok to fall, it's alright and stuffs like that as he bring him to the sofa. Sometimes if it's a hard fall or his brother just wouldn't stop crying after a fall, he'll alert the grown-ups and insist that we do something about his brother immediately. And of course, he'll help in the process.

Caring, isn't he?

Once we came home late, my hubby and I. It was raining heavily that night. Little Travis was sitting on the sofa when we reached home. When he saw us, he looked up at the clock and the weather outside. Then he turned to us and with a very fierce expression, lectured us. He said that it was late and was raining heavily, we shouldn't be outside. We should be home early. Because we might be sick and might catch a fever if we were caught in the rain. After the lecture, he gave out a loud sigh as he shook his head slightly from left to right before he turn his head back & continue watching his TV show.

OMG!!! He's mature, isn't he?

That's how my boy is... A sweet, caring, mature little boy...

I can give up everything for them. Even my life... No words can describe how proud I am of them. All I want from them is them to be happy always!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 10:29 AM

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Life is full of ups & downs.. Everyone knows that.. And i learn to take everything in my stride. Try to live life to the fullest. And try to let those i love know how much i love them. Ever since grandpi's death, life hasn't been kind to me..

I thought for a very long time. Why am i feeling so terrible after grandpi is gone? I've tried my best to be by his side when he was in hospital. And everyone knows that I'm worried for him, I cared for him. And I know that myself too... But why am i feeling so terrible???

Finally, after weeks of struggle, i realised why.

I feel terrible because I had never done my part as a grand-daughter. I spent my times with frenx when i was young. And never once was i by his side when he needed me. Grandpi can sacrifice everything for me, for us... But never once did i sacrifice anything for him. I wasn't even there when he pass away. See... I'm a selfish bitch!!!!

Nothing i do now will help. No matter how i cry, how i blame myself, or what i do, grandpi will never come back to life. I have no chance to make amendments. I will have to live with this regret for as long as i live. Blaming myself, cursing myself all my life... I will never feel good again. Unless i leave Singapore, I will always think of grandpi. We have too much memory together. Everywhere i go, I'll see him holding my hand, walking side by side, enjoying ourselves. He's the one i love most... Though he's dead, but he will always be in my heart.

All i hope now is him to rest in peace.

And if there's really next life... If we really do have reincarnation, I do hope that he'll be my grandpi again. Having him as my grandfather is one of the biggest blessing i got in my life!

GRANDPI, I LOVE YOU!!!!!

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:03 PM

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Went to the Relics exhibition last night. It was really an eye-opener. The decoration and everything was done nicely. And you can see many different relics there.

We reached there at about 6pm. We went for dinner before going into the exhibition. We went to the registration counter to register. The lady there gave us some free gifts and asked if we are going to help in the praying for world peace. They need us to chant a total of 1000000000 times altogether by 17/12. Then they are going to pray for world peace on that day., together with all Lamas and the followers. Of course we said yes. After that we walked over to another registration counter. This time, it is to register for the blessing that will take place that evening and as a follower of the association. We proceed to the exhibition hall immediately after the registration. We saw a lot of relics. From the Buddha itself and his ten great disciples. It was really 'WOW'!!!

I saw relics from the buddha's blood, fingers, brain, bone, teeth and even saliva. Can you imagine?! Relics from all these body parts!? Some relics are as big as a palm, some bigger. But most of them are very small ones. Relics do multiply by themselves over the years. The people in the exhibition said that the relics multiply faster during the exhibition as they play the chanting of the living Buddha everyday. It is also believe that Relics come in 5 colours at first. Slowly, some of them change colours over the years.

They also have a row of Lamas and volunteers there with the relics kept in glass ornaments telling you little anecdotes about the relics. They'll ask you to put both hand close to the relics and when you do so, you'll feel magnetic wave. Depending on your 'fate', some will feel stronger wave while some will feel cold wave instead.

At about 7.30pm, we were seated at the hall waiting for the Blessing Ceremony to begin. The Living Buddha and his group of Lamas reached at about 8.30pm. I love this part most. Before they reached, you'll hear the sound of the 海螺(shape of a big seashell), a musical instrument famous for its beautiful sound and was widely used in Tibet. Then slowly, you'll see whole group of people, lining up in order, entering the hall and onto the stage. The whole thing is really magnificent!

We stayed there till about 10.30pm. And went home straight as it was already late. I'm glad I went last night. For as long as I live, I will never forget this day.

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:54 PM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Hack!!! I am so damn blur recently!!! I dun even know that my econ class has ended 2 days ago~~ Shack!! What the hell am I dreaming of? Hur~

~Just called my school to request for another copy of the class schedule. They say they'll fax over to me, but I called them 3 times, and not even 1 fax I receive... haiz~

I'm going crazy trying to understand what the econ lecturer is saying... I attended his class for abt 8weeks, and frankly, I dun really understand what he teaches... Econs is so difficult .. With the formula and the stupid theory to remember.... I doubt I can pass the exam...

Life is still about he same.. No change... Day in day out doing the same old thing... Work, go home/study, go home... Saturday night go 'chiong', den wake up at 8am the next morning to take care of that 2 lil' rascals... Basically, that's my life... ~No Life~

Received an email from HDB the other day announcing the launch of another BTO flats. This email really caught my eyes as these flats will be built in Sengkang, Compassvale View.. A short distance away from my mother's place… Hahaha!!! Im so happy!!! After reading what I got to know from the web, I decided to apply for a 3rm flat. Will not know if I'm allocated to the flats until next feb/mar. HDB will send a letter to inform us after they have access our application and the balloting. But I'm quite sure I'll be able to have a flat allocated to me due to several reasons. At last I'm going to have my own flat!! Haha~~ I'm so excited abt it! I keep looking into HDB's website to see the block plan and keep thinking of which unit to apply, on which level and daydream of how I would decorate my house when the time comes.. Checking out the cost of engaging an interior designer, the estimated amount I would need for the furniture and electrical appliances, the best renovator, and lotsa stuffs!!! These alone could keep me going for days!!!

Hah~

Dearie says that I'm too 'kiasu'. Cos it's still too early to think of all these... Actually he have a point too... Cos we are still not even sure if we'll be able to get the flats... It's really a bit silly to think of all these now... But well... It's always good to have a dream, isn't it?

Have not been smoking for abt 3 days.. Hope this time I'll be able to pull it through... Gotta really quit for good.. Can't continue smoking as it not only do harm to my lungs, but my pocket as well.. After I successfully quit this habit, I'll try to make my hubby quit too... So that he won't die before me... Haha~

Missing grandpi now.. So sad.. Everyone at home dreamt of grandpi after he passed away.. But only I didn't dream of him... Why??? I miss him so much!!! Logically, I should be the one who dream of him the most often... Cos I've been thinking of him all the time... Sometimes I wonder if grandpi is angry with me for not staying by his side when he needs me the most? Everywhere I go to, I'll think of grandpi.. When I'm in the train, when I'm at home, when I'm having supper with my hubby @ the coffeeshops near out place, images of grandpi and me in these places would pop up in my mind. I love him... But I lost him.... The only regret I have is not spending more time with him when he's well…

*Serves me right for feeling so terrible now*

IcYb3|| counted snowflakes at 3:27 PM

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I'm a simple person who dislike complicated things.
I like to take life easy,
but that seems to defy the force of nature.
So here I am, struggling day after day,
trying to make life easier for me & my love ones.

I try to love everyone around me
But I am no saint.
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