Wednesday, October 11, 2006
The past all came flooding into my mind. Those happy memories i shared with my grandfather; those beautiful moments, will be etched vividly in my mind forever...
I can still remember, as if everything happened just yesterday...
There was a couple of times, when my grandmother was caning me, my grandpy would piggy-back me to shield me from my granny's caning....
Every morning, my grandpy would be sitted in the kitchen having his breakfast, that consist of bread/biscuit and a cup of tea or milo. When I woke up, he would motion me to his side and asked if i would like to join him. I would nod my head happily, n my grandpy would get up n make another set of breakfast for me. We would sit at the table & chat abt everything under the sun...
At night, he would wrap my body with blanket. Wrapped it up tightly, so that i won't have a chance to kick away the blanket in the middle of the night, and end up catching a cold the next day...
He would bring me out almost everyday. He'll buy me nice food, games, beautiful dresses...etc. Anything that i want & within his mean, He would get it for me... Things like Nintendo, PlayStation...etc.
When we're not going anywhere, we'll be at home sitting infront of the television. With a controller each on our hand, we'll play games like Sonic the Hedgehog & Super Mario together... He would laugh at me when i failed to pass the round, and i would laugh at him too with every obstacle he couldn't pass....
Time flies, I've grown up. I start to have my own circles of frenx & start to stay out till late night.
Mixed with the wrong company, and landed myself in serious trouble...
The day i was to go to court, my grandpy cried. Through his tears, he tells me that I'll be alright & that he will be waiting for me to be home for dinner.... Sadly, I wasn't home for dinner that evening, I had my dinner @ TPGH...
Two years passed & i was released from the home.The moment i got home, my grandpy rushed to the door n welcome me... He said to me ' Let bygones be bygones. Now that you're home for good, you gotta really be a good girl. "Ah gong"(grandfather in chinese) cant bear to see anything happen to you again...' I nod my head & promise I'll be good. But i didnt make good of my words. Just bearly a month after my release, I started to stay away from home again. Came home only once or twice a month... But my grandpy wasn't angry with me. He always speak to me nicely & give me advice. He's never harsh on me, not that i can remember of.
In yr 2003, 15 mths after i was released from TPGH, I married my husband. My grandpy was very happy for me then. But he was also worried.. For i was only 17 yrs old at that time. He was worried that i'll be hurt...
I moved over to my in law's place after married. Initially, I wasn't working, so i have the time to visit him as and when i like... But after i gave birth to my sons, especially after the youngest one was born, my freedom was restricted. I couldn't visit him as n when i like... I could only visit him abt once a week or so...
Now... I really regret not spending more time with my grandpy in the past... I know I'm the apple of his eyes.. Everyone knows that... But i did nothing to reciprocate. If only i can turn back time... I would not want to get married. I would rather spend my time with my grandpy till the day he leave us... If only.... If only... If only... All i left with now is 'if only'....
No one will understand how terrible i feel right now... No one will understand the bond i share with my grandpy.. Even if grandpy really leaves us one day, i will try not to be sad... For i know he is still living, not in the mortal world anymore(of course), but in my heart always....
I can still remember, as if everything happened just yesterday...
There was a couple of times, when my grandmother was caning me, my grandpy would piggy-back me to shield me from my granny's caning....
Every morning, my grandpy would be sitted in the kitchen having his breakfast, that consist of bread/biscuit and a cup of tea or milo. When I woke up, he would motion me to his side and asked if i would like to join him. I would nod my head happily, n my grandpy would get up n make another set of breakfast for me. We would sit at the table & chat abt everything under the sun...
At night, he would wrap my body with blanket. Wrapped it up tightly, so that i won't have a chance to kick away the blanket in the middle of the night, and end up catching a cold the next day...
He would bring me out almost everyday. He'll buy me nice food, games, beautiful dresses...etc. Anything that i want & within his mean, He would get it for me... Things like Nintendo, PlayStation...etc.
When we're not going anywhere, we'll be at home sitting infront of the television. With a controller each on our hand, we'll play games like Sonic the Hedgehog & Super Mario together... He would laugh at me when i failed to pass the round, and i would laugh at him too with every obstacle he couldn't pass....
Time flies, I've grown up. I start to have my own circles of frenx & start to stay out till late night.
Mixed with the wrong company, and landed myself in serious trouble...
The day i was to go to court, my grandpy cried. Through his tears, he tells me that I'll be alright & that he will be waiting for me to be home for dinner.... Sadly, I wasn't home for dinner that evening, I had my dinner @ TPGH...
Two years passed & i was released from the home.The moment i got home, my grandpy rushed to the door n welcome me... He said to me ' Let bygones be bygones. Now that you're home for good, you gotta really be a good girl. "Ah gong"(grandfather in chinese) cant bear to see anything happen to you again...' I nod my head & promise I'll be good. But i didnt make good of my words. Just bearly a month after my release, I started to stay away from home again. Came home only once or twice a month... But my grandpy wasn't angry with me. He always speak to me nicely & give me advice. He's never harsh on me, not that i can remember of.
In yr 2003, 15 mths after i was released from TPGH, I married my husband. My grandpy was very happy for me then. But he was also worried.. For i was only 17 yrs old at that time. He was worried that i'll be hurt...
I moved over to my in law's place after married. Initially, I wasn't working, so i have the time to visit him as and when i like... But after i gave birth to my sons, especially after the youngest one was born, my freedom was restricted. I couldn't visit him as n when i like... I could only visit him abt once a week or so...
Now... I really regret not spending more time with my grandpy in the past... I know I'm the apple of his eyes.. Everyone knows that... But i did nothing to reciprocate. If only i can turn back time... I would not want to get married. I would rather spend my time with my grandpy till the day he leave us... If only.... If only... If only... All i left with now is 'if only'....
No one will understand how terrible i feel right now... No one will understand the bond i share with my grandpy.. Even if grandpy really leaves us one day, i will try not to be sad... For i know he is still living, not in the mortal world anymore(of course), but in my heart always....
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