Thursday, September 14, 2006
Hate it!!!
What is a family actually??? Why everybody seems to be taking me as a maid???
I can do a million thing the whole day. But if my mother in law saw somwthing that she doesn't like... or let's put it this way... If i did alot of thing on the particular day, but i did not do only one thing, She will keep nagging and criticising me... I can do a million good. But if i only do one f*cking thing not to their standard, den my ears will suffer for the rest of the day.
There's so many things to do everyday. Especially with 2 kids ard, the list of thing to do is more then ever.... She expect me to do everything in one short day... I even have to look after the kids, cook for them, bath them, entertain them, n pat them to sleep... I'm a human being too!!!
She can leave whatever there is to do to the next day if she's tired. But i cant! I have to finish everything by the end of the day!
Her precious son can sleep till evening time on off days. Need not look after HIS OWN KIDS. Neither will she scream or shout or scold him... But if i Sleep till after 9am on my off days, she'll scream her head off!!!!!! What the f*ck man!!!
Is it because I'm someone else's daughter, nt one she bore herself, that's why she have to treat me like that?! I'm just 20 yrs old. I can jolly well be like those young mothers. Irresponsible, demanding, & be everything but take care of my kids. But i did not... I look after them on my off days, discipline them, teach them things. But why no one appreciate it??? No one understand what I'm going thru???
If you think this is worse enough... There's more!!!
My dearest hubby, who is 4 yrs older then me... is no better then his own mother...
He takes me for granted... is a big big spendthrift.. One who dont plan for his future... And a big big bully!!!!
He never brings me out for dinner on my birthday, valentines day, christmas.... etc. Any occasion at all!!!!! I can spend all my money on him or do anything for him, but he wont be greatful. He thinks that these are what i shld do!!!
Whenever I'm being bullied by his family, he'll just sit aside and do his thing.. Act as if nothing happened. I understand that one side is his wife, another side is his parents. He is also in a dillema. I dont expect him to scold his parents or do anything to his parents for me... I'm also a mother... I know if he does all these, it will definitely break his parents heart. All i need is him to come over n console me, lent me listening ear n listen to what i gotta say. He never do any of the above before...
I'm his wife... Imet him when i was 16. Married him before i turn 17. Bore him 2 sons at the age of 19. Sacrifice all my frenx, my money, my time, my energy to look after him n his 2 sons. What the hell do i get i n return???
THIS KIND OF F*CKING TREATMENT!!!
FREAK!!! Why must this kind of thing happen on me??? If i'm like one of my frenx wife's pattern. And he treat me like this, i've got nothing to complain abt. But i did nt!!! I do my best n do my part to this family... Why must they still treat me like this???
Frenx my age, some even older then me are leading a life far more better then me. They have the looks, the figure, money... Everything they want... ME??? I have no looks! No figure! No money!!! Nothing!!!!!!! Why???? All because of this family!!!
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snowflakes at 9:02 PM